Stress, again taking a comeback....

So I have been at work for 10 months and I have had to move rooms that I work in, honestly to help out that room and put the managers mind at rest I would be OK doing it. Well I thought it was lasting a couple of months but it hasn't. I ended up getting stressed out because of the noise and doing nothing, basically sitting on my butt all day. I went to occupational health and told them, they have told my manager that I need moving back to my original room that I was happy in. So I am getting moved back there on 4th March. The room I'm in got too much noise level wise, doing nothing and when I asked to move back, they said yes you will at beginning of march when others have had their holidays. So I tried to stick it out, but I ended up crying every night at home as I didn't want to go in the next day. I called docs last Thursday who decided to sign me off because I know my sodium levels can drop, I suffer from SIADH, so i didn't want to fall into a coma so i am signed off until 4th March. Why do I feel bad about being off even though I know its for my own health.

I am looking forward to go back into my original room but feel guilty about being off even though I'm just taking the time out at home.

I went to a Headway group on Wednesday beside me and I even felt guilty as I didn't look like there was anything wrong with me, when others are still suffering more than me. Well I think they are. Guilt is rising from me yet again......

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Not being funny but what is your job? You say you sit in a room all day that has noises and you don't have anything to do. Sounds like a prison cell.

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I am a Nursery practioner looking after children from 4 months to 4 years.

[Beachlovingkiwi]

I too work with children / kindergarten age 3-5years and when they tried to move me two years ago to a younger age group I ended up taking leave as the stress of change and the extra noise level was not going to work for me. After a break I went back casually but only in the older room as this as where I had done all my recovery work and was conditioned to this room. How ever it happened again last year - got to September October and I was completely burnt out again and needs to have leave again. I made the decision for the new year - this year I needed to make a change as the demands of early childhood were not working for me any more - it’s the only job I knew as straight out of school I studied and have been working for over 20 years in ece. Anyway I’m three weeks into doing some work in primary school - covering release time for junior teachers - just doing two mornings but I must say I love it - the demands are not as great and so far the smaller class sizes are amazing! Anyway take it easy and look after yourself - you are replaceable at work but not at home 😀😀

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That's exactly the way I have been over the past four months. I recovered back at work in 3-4 year old, and then moved to 4 months -2 year old. Way too much noise for me. I am going back to 3-4 year old on 4th March and I know I will feel lots better. Like you though I am beginning to wonder if this is the job for me and I would love to move even if its filling shelves in a local supermarket. I decided this year that it's me and my health that comes first not anyone else's decision to make for me or ask me to fill in what they can't do. I'm so glad you got a job where you are happy and you are doing so well and enjoying it. Well done you!

[TreesMTBI]

Hi Lion, well done on your decision to put you and your health first this year. I know how hard you pushed yourself to get back to work and I’m in awe especially now knowing you work with young children who aren’t known for being quiet 😁 I’ve not been able to get to work for years now, well not doing what I used to do anyway, but hopefully on the road to find out what work I CAN do that I might actually enjoy 😂

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Thank you, sometimes I wonder why I am still here as i struggle a lot but I'm getting there. 😀

[Nemo24]

Sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment. Don't feel bad about being off work. You obviously need the break to get your strength back. I would always be the same worrying about work, but having been made redundant I am thinking about it differently. You are best person to know how you are doing. Good your employer has listened to you. As regards the Headway meetings I feel the same now. Just think of it as your injury being internal. Think it's described as an invisible disability. I ❤️ my Headway group as the people at the meetings just get it. They know how fatigue affects and I don't have to try to explain how it feels different to being tired. Take this break and bounce back 🙂

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Thank you. 😊