Posting for the first time in a while.
18 months or so from my BI and I'm wondering why I'm not right yet. Things felt OK till about 10 months back and I've struggled a bit since. Memory is getting worse, confidence is shot, motivation is zero, and fatigue seems to be increasing.
Not sure if it is a touch of PTSD as have occasional flash back and mild panic attacks, the mood is mostly low. I've upped the sertraline recently and thats helped a bit but I can't seem to get used to what I am now compared to what I was. I did a self esteem course with Mind but that really seemed to focus on how others have put you down, but I feel that I'm comparing myself with the pre BI self, and knowing I'm not good enough.
I know the new me stuff but I don't like it and can't get to grips with it and not sure what to do.
Never had any "proper" support since I got out of hospital and not sure what if anything can help.
What do you guys think? Anyone else stuck in a rutt with the new you? There do seem to be groups out there that could help but apparently if you have had a BI you no longer work full time as they ALL happen during the day.