COA - children of alcoholism

[bexx87]

theguardian.com/society/201...

Articles like this I would live to read and I started but after a while I get too drained by all the information.

I was born addicted to alcohol hence why I had issues in my early years and when i was 13 a d my bi my mum drank more heavily so when I wasnt getting therapy or home schooled I was forced to sit in the corner of a pub and drink coke in a depressed, anxious hormonal state while everyone gave her the support and sympathy for having a disabled daughter while they overlooked me thinking she was being a good mum to me when all of her alcoholic friends now look back and realise how wrong they were and they all feel like they failed me

I have just messaged them my little story and said I have a article written about have a brain Injury that helped how do I get one written about being a coa?

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As the saying goes-''u can't choose ur family''!

Well until ur 16! LOL

Seems unbelievable what some parents are like!

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But like me you can choose to Ignore the toxic people

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Done that thru life alot-but then i end up isolated! Thank god i like my own company! LOL

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Me 2 me 2 why do you think I choose to live in a small 1 bed flat

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I liked it by myself,just couldn't handle neighbours who think someone with a brain injury is a freak,in my case! Or that i should just work full time-probably so they had time to rob me,as landlord done in last place(thank god most my clothes,and music wasn't there)!

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Next door thinks that but she has PTSD and DOESNt work but I have a BI and DO work so who do you think the landlord is going to side with grrrrr ME!!

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And rightly so.

Sometimes the MH diagnosis are overused,or used to fit people who don't tick boxes(then just given drugs!).

I used to meet someone who has PTSD in a regular Mind group,he was an army medic in Northern Ireland,and he has NO understanding of anyone else being ill. Keeps having a go on why people have bus passes-one friend of mine is practically blind with arthritis and depression,yet he thinks he doesn't deserve a bus pass,but he does! He can be really unempathetic(if that's a word!). The army guy hasn't worked for yrs,yet i did up til 2015. I've had alot of the MH terms from NHS,just to give me their ineffective drugs-Schizophrenia,personality disorders,PTSD(tho was written down,never told!)! Know of alot of people who are supposed to have mental health issues-think some are just a bloody joke! Some even claim to have Bipolar who don't take meds,yet i have less control over moods(also with no meds!)! I only recently claimed PIP thinking i didn't even deserve it!

Is alot wasted on MH which over 90% i've seen in my city are really just substance abuse with NHS wasting thousands a year on them!

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My report from when I had my bi said I had PTSD but was never told so when the neuropsychologist last year mentioned it to me I looked at her confused

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Yeah,i just found out PTSD was written in notes end of last yr when i saw summary care records,also that when family tried to section me(aunty was a Sister in Coldeat hospital!) that she said she thought i had Schizophrenia(now know is focal seizures,not bothered to get diagnosed!)!

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I think the PTSD has been triggered myself from everything Ive had to deal with if that is possible from going awol to dormant to awol

nhs.uk/conditions/post-trau...

If you have had depression or anxiety in the past, or you don't receive much support from family or friends, you're more susceptible to developing PTSD after a traumatic event.

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Yeah,cos u had difficult childhood,makes sense. I just don't follow symptoms in any sense at all!

Like i don't follow Borderline or Paranoid Personality Disorder i still have on notes,Personality Change(Organic Personality Disorder),yes. The MH one's are supposed to be only diagnosed from teens,i've had symptoms from 5,so know it's thru BI,just NHS hoped not telling me anything for decades,then saving money from MH diagnosis would work-it hasn't!

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its not just my childhood that has triggered it, ive been though something recently in the past 2 years that has re-triggered it, I have oddley craved another mri scan to make sure my frontal lobe is fine as it does hurt whenever i get a little bit of stress, and now i have logical to my reasoning (see my injury brain knows what needs happen):

High adrenaline levels

Studies have shown that people with PTSD have abnormal levels of stress hormones.

Normally, when in danger, the body produces stress hormones like adrenaline to trigger a reaction in the body.

This reaction, often known as the "fight or flight" reaction, helps to deaden the senses and dull pain.

People with PTSD have been found to continue to produce high amounts of fight or flight hormones even when there's no danger.

It's thought this may be responsible for the numbed emotions and hyperarousal experienced by some people with PTSD.

Changes in the brain

In people with PTSD, parts of the brain involved in emotional processing appear different in brain scans.

One part of the brain responsible for memory and emotions is known as the hippocampus.

In people with PTSD, the hippocampus appears smaller in size.

It's thought that changes in this part of the brain may be related to fear and anxiety, memory problems and flashbacks.

The malfunctioning hippocampus may prevent flashbacks and nightmares being properly processed, so the anxiety they generate doesn't reduce over time.

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I had fight or flight,& 'flashbacks' was given another diagnosis of Panic Disorder that was wrong. Again for me was focal seizures.

Also Borderline Personality Disorder has small Hippocampus aswell.

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I am so so sorry to hear all that. You faced some terrible challenges for a child.

The way you have pulled yourself through and made a good life for yourself is a testament to your strength and resilience.

You're an inspiration.

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Thank you