not to good at the moment

[eddstjohnoneday]

someone said I depress everyone .I wish someone out there who has a quiet place for me to rent anywere. the social will pay rent . id be a good watchman . id be and do the best I can . just hate my life . a little out of house flat . in woods or gardens big estate need a hug .

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Hi Eddie,

You sound very lonely. Have you had counselling? Do you go to any clubs or follow any hobbies? Get in touch with Headway and see if they can find some counselling for you to help you cope with your bi and your sad feelings. Do you have a Headway centre near you where you can go and meet others with a bi? It would be so good for you to chat to others with the same problems as youhave. Give it a try.

Lots of luck

[eddstjohnoneday in reply to Hidden]

thanks I cant do it as well as my brain I have severe damage in my spine

and all the diseases that I have im just happy with the website yes im lonely

my ex partner left me and kids she was having an affair for over a year before I caught them hand in hand on the beach .but at that time I didnt attack .see my mum was dying and my brother said she s ok eddie she lost 6 stone . I went home with my son when I say kids there in there 20 s .and couldn't understand and said to my dad brother and sister .what the f k is going on why isn't she in hospital . they said she wont go.

I had my brain damage then as I wrote a lot down hence ithis is why I can no what went on I promised my mum ill be home next week mum to look after you she cried are will you love . I had to come back to jersey for social to keep house going. they help with rent I had no choice .and when I sorted things out ready to go home she was takeing into hospital again she s ok eddie just a chest infection nextday phone call better get home edd so my sister got me a flight . I turned up at hossie my mum was well all I rember it took 20min for her heart of gold to stop I didn't cry cause I cant .

and me dad was the same told by my brother ok eddie going home tomorrow yes dave whats me dad like dave he s just like he was at mums funeral big belly goes outside to have a fag with you he s ok eddie I turn up at carehome and he s bed ridden 5 and a half stone yes I was lied to so booked to go back home and 2 .30 am phone call eddie my dads died . I forgive my brother . im a very foregiving person but if I got all paperwork and told you every detail you would be disscusted at the way the lies

again no tears . I no this thou I had my brain damage . and then no one speaks to me they don't answer the phone to me im not grieving . ive tried everything thers nothing they can do for me so so im in agony now . and the consultats said he dosnt no how I get through one day to the next. . he said my spine and brain damage is very bad and I can only walk ten min im in such pain I nearly pass out fatigue I have to live with it . talking therapy here in jersey said ive had 17 years of stress caused with social but they no how bad I am now and seem to be ok , I hope so far now my kids want the mum to move back and me get a quiet flat . but truthfully I think now I have to

do what I need . to do I do my best . and put other people first . life is cruel . and I think of the way ive been treated . ie my family back at home who don't answer phone to me think that I didn't have severe brain damage . so all of use and headway and my brain injury case manager are my family oh and my dog Jessie jack russel you no I talk to her im not nuts or a danger to anyone and she always licks the part of my head were damage is . lost so much . when all ive done is my best for everyone and am treated like that . . what I need is a quiet flat .again I would ask everyone if your rich that's fine do you have an little flat on your land .im not after money . your rent would be paid by

social im a good man . and yes I would love to find a soulmate or maybe a girlfriend . someone is outthere .I have so much love to give .id be happy having someone to cuddle. not just for sex . I don't drink and never will sex isn't a thing I need its to be loved and to have someone to cuddle and is nice in the heart .x

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Can only send you cyber-hugs Eddie but sending loads, with love..................Cat x

[keeley24]

It would be worth you trying to meet people who have had head injuries like yourself. Ok not being able to walk far may limit you but couldn't you or haven't you got a wheel chair to get around better? It is so easy after brain injuries to end up lonely even if you can get about ok and talk to people. I'm in England had brain injury nearly 5 years back and feel fine but still not looking for work I know I will struggle to get work and maybe struggle doing work. So it does leave you lonely. I have been on a few 4 week courses for something to do in hope of meeting someone friends but I'm not one to make conversation unless someone talks to me so it is hard. I have just recently started going to a local group meetings with others with head injuries. A bloke who had head injury just over 5 year back set it up and it is best thing I've done since my injury. No friends through it yet but it's group meeting each week 1 to 1 each week to talk to who run it and set targets to follow. I've never been one to follow targets but I get to say what targets I'm happy with and it does give me something to aim for. The people who run it are so friendly it's more like having a chat with a friend than someone telling you what to do. I don't know if you live near anything like this but if you are it would be worth going to to see if it helps.