hi guys hope this finds you all well xx or as well as can be expected x
after a long cry and a huge rant outside to myself I decided to work with it ,yes there has been times I have wanted to walk away ,but am here and sharing this with you all .I have tackled all I needed to do.am waiting for another pip form to be sent out as we have to start all over again as they lost that form too ,we have had a lot of visitors this week and all are in the same mind that scott should not have been sent home after just 5 days ,anyway he was and we got to deal with all that comes with it ,I have never filled so many forms in in all my life but its all done now ,I must say I feel like I have been on this never ending rollercoaster I find myself under a lot of strain ,but saying that I have now done it .I have been consentrating on what can scott do not what he carnt do .we have even had a laugh along the way ,I have now learnt that this is the best option to go with to work on what he can do not what he carnt ,it is still very early days still but I am feeling a bit more positive about the out look ,we still have a mri scan waiting to go to and nerolagist but after 5 weeks things are moving forward I take each day as it comes and I no longer worry that scott carnt remember what he did yestaurday .that was that day and today is this day ,well that's what I am doing ,there has been a lot of emotion and tears along they way and no doubt there will be more ,but am running head on with them all and ticking boxes off when they are done am now slowly chipping away at a very long list I now see some light at the end of a horrid tunnel ,yes I will still cry and scream but it is what it is ,scott still has a very long way to go but we will do it every day is a new day and no matter how horrid he is we just start over the next day he is even smiling more now we talk a lot now and he even laughs that he wont remember the next day ,all I can say for them that find themselves like us is please work with what you have not what you have lost every day is a new day .am so thankfull just to have scott here with me ,things really could have been diff so am thanking you all for all your advice .this forum and the people who are on it have been a god send xx