Hi all, I feel the need to post.
Been having an unsettled time of late. Nothing changes much, I suppose I'm wrong in expecting it to.
I need daily paracetamol to function, today I took co-codamol because I was having to step up the coping. But it was fine, went well and I came home feeling good.
I'd just like to be able to predict how I'm going to feel.
It doesn't matter whether I do or do not have a good night's sleep. I still think air pressure plays a big part, but that's not an easy one to prove or disprove.
When I first get up in the morning I still do that zombie walk I wrote of years ago, but I suppose I do it less now than I used to.
I've written lately that acupuncture has helped me, as has Tai Chi, and that still holds good. If truth was known and I was honest, I suppose I'm bitter that I'm having to deal with this.
It's cast such a shadow over our lives, I know we all have to deal with this, I'm just tired of the daily fight against it. The positivity is just in hiding at present, it will surface again soon, I won't let it get the better of me.
I just felt a little honesty wouldn't go amiss, I'm only human after all!!
And, I'll even own up to a little jealousy towards all those of you who have gone back to work or resumed driving or can even indulge in those sports you used to, run, ride bikes etc., etc.
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad you can I do fill my days with lots of things, just a bit different from what I had hoped would be.
Sorry for the self indulgence of sharing that with you, don't know where it came from really, been a good day overall, just wish they were all like this.
Best wishes love Janet xxx