A new day dawns and the bleary eyes force themselves to open. The breeze picks up speed, gathers strength and blows a little harder. Time marches on and the day passes, all the while the wind is picking up speed. The tunnel is now a trap and you can’t escape.
That wind is awareness, it is life and it’s hurtling by you. You’re clinging on for dear life, literally. The wind is now a maelstrom and you stand and watch and wonder. You’re scared, you have no control. The hurricane continues unabated, you freeze in the vortex wondering what the hell is going on around you, trying to make sense of it all, trying to work out who you even are. Fatigue, memory, control, balance, remember when you could control them?
No.
Life is passing you by and you’re not sure of your place in it, you’re not SURE of anything. Concentration rules supreme and the enormous effort to do just that is immense. In the meantime, standing up straight in the tempest is wearing you down.
I need sleep. Again.
And THAT, Mr Theroux, is what it's like living with the hidden disability that is brain injury.
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Off work today. Trying to recharge and recover. Sometimes I just need to make sure I actually listen to my body instead of keeping pushing to the limits. I just wish I had even the slightest notion of reaching these limits before I actually hit the wall.
Goodness me - I'm moved to tears reading your post. How brilliantly set out and how wonderfully descriptive. Wish I could have written that......well said, a perfect analogy of a day in the life. Brilliant. I do hope you have success with Mr.T. He needs to read this. x
Therapeutic isn't it Andy. I always found that putting intractable problems into the abstract compartmentalises them once & for all. And it's almost like creating something good from the turmoil and chaos which is our lives ! xxx
'We all forget things as we get older...' the number of times I have clasped my hands behind my back so as not to thump the ignorant insensitive but ultimately well meaning person spouting such claptrap...he is not alone!
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