Strange title I know but bare with me.
Had a good day today managed a short walk with a new group of bi people run by our local football club.
was sat in back of van when I was handed a club sweat shirt as they explained to the rest of the group that as I was a qualified walk leader I would be helping out and would be at the back of the group to assist anyone.
Well the sweat shirt fit and yes I did qualify a couple of years ago as a walk leader. i also vaguely remember talking to them about this. So it seems I volunteered.......how did I do that and when eeerrrr not quite sure. I suppose it will come back to me but cant quite remember volunteering.
As it happens if I did ( and I'm sure must have) I sure am glad. Had a great time putting something not only that I had learnt since my bi but also something that I have retained. Also good to feel useful for once.
I have done voluntary work in the past but ended up frustrated when it never turned into any paid employment. Its funny how quickly you can not be needed anymore when it looks like they may be forced to pay you. This led me to abandon any form of voluntary work out of frustration at being reminded that I seemed deemed unemployable.
I think I am about to rethink this as I got more out of today myself than anybody. I have devided its very nice to feel good about yourself now and again.
As I was writing this it has reminded me that I haven't felt really useful and good about myself in a long long time. That something so simple has had such an effect has astounded me.
The fact I have done this by doing something I cant remember agreeing to is rather irronic and has truely made me think " how did I manage that". Sorry for the long post ...but I got there in the end