I suffer with extreme chronic depression and diabetes but to name just a few medical conditions I have. I am fully admitting that I have absolutely no will power in anything and am under sessions to try and alter my behavior as this also effects my dealing with my diabetes.
I was diagnosed in 1987 at the age of 18 months so I can't blame you for thinking 'surely it should come naturally' . I'm sure it would have done in 'normal circumstances', but due to family and social situations whilst growing up to everyone and myself my diabetes took a side step in life and now I struggle every to change my leopard spots. So....when I was diagnosed with CD (in 2009 when 5 months pregnant and I stuck to a GF diet till after I gave birth) I took it on the chin in front of everyone else but felt like my world had collapsed.
I am obviously aware that neither diabetes or CD is the worst thing in the world but for me it has been a long hard battle. If not for anything else as part of my depression I comfort eat and haven't found a solution to that yet and what do I find comfort in the most? Of course breads, crisps blah blah blah basically everything that contains gluten. Another reason I am really struggling is financially I have found so many amazing products on the market, mostly available online, but when we are struggling to food on the table for my son, my husband and I, it's just not an option to spend out on expensive foods that would make me sticking to a GF diet totally possible. I have tried making my own things which have been ok but not great and yes I get my bread and pasta etc on prescription although my orders are small and last me a long time.
Every site I have been on I have been treated like the devil for saying 'I still eat gluten' yes through choice, but that choice is based on not be able to resist temptation, dealing with CD as part of my depression and by not being able to afford things. Iv'e read through this post and I can see that I still cant put into words how difficult I find this. I hope there is advice or even some comfort in knowing some one else has felt this way and has now overcome their difficulties. Sorry for going on and on but I am now fully vented