Memories and GI Problem

[Buxnny]

(TMI, but I think it's a good thing to talk about)

Hello!! Everyone in my last post was so sweet and helpful!! currently, I'm on vacation at the beach, and it makes me feel like a human again. When I'm at home, all I have is school work and myself, and it is truthfully so hard to get through every day, but the beach always makes me feel so connected to my body and the rest of the world. I think it's so important for us with FND to be in a place that's fun and brings you the maximum amount of joy. Anyways, moving onto the point of this post, I have been struggling with EXTREME constipation, if I don't take a laxative or a stool softener, I will be stopped for weeks and weeks on end. (down at the beach, shrimp is good for that!) I went to the GI doctor not too long ago, and he recommended a purge of my system (aka, colonoscopy cleanse without the colonoscopy) it cleared me up a bit, but I need to do it again to see the real results. For almost ten years, I haven't been able to throw up because I have emetophobia (fear of throwing up), and when I was doing the Miralax cleanse, I threw up for the first time in forever, and It was truly a horrific experience. As I was crying on the bathroom floor because of it, I remembered something that I couldn't remember my entire life. I won't tell the details of the memory because it's way too TMI for any social platform, but it was when I was a little kid and had an issue with throwing up. It was trauma. That day, I had the biggest epiphany, and it made me think of a comment on my last post that suggested that my FND stemmed from my traumatic past instead of an underlying physical cause, and it completely changed the way I saw life and my chronic illness. I wanted to share, not only because I'm excited to see the things I can do to get better every day, but I also want others to see that this condition has so many different parts and paths that can be helped and figured out and I hope that someone will read this and take something from it!

If you have any comments, I would love to read and respond to them!

[Alwayspink60]

Hi I found your post really good as I can’t believe you are so much like me when I was younger and the good positive thing is that hopefully you will get help to over these obstacles and find a way to enjoy life to the full in the future by knowing how to deal with certain situations😊. I to have had a sickness ( throwing up). Phobia since I was a child, and with other things I ended up taking stemitil for 30 years I stated of having to take them regularly but over these the years just as and when I need them. They are my security, I have a escape to I managed to get a caravan a Skegness just for me to be able to go wherever I needed a break as can’t book anywhere because never know how I’m going to feel, this way I can just go when I feel like it 😊 I love to listen to the sea. I can’t do busy places so it’s more the quiet part, and for years I managed to have a near normal life with a full time job, through something that happened at work I now have FND and finding very difficult at the min with all these new symptoms, but I will remain hopeful and find away to get to my relaxing place and try to heal, I’m very lucky that I can do this, I always had a static for years but as finances got tight I got a touring caravan which is sited all the time. Which I love 🥰. Really hope you keep doing good 😊. Sorry for long post think I ramble on a bit 😊x

[Lady4]

I am so pleased that you have released what may have triggered your FND and you can see a way through.