Can't cope with this anymore

Awww man don't know how much longer I can cope with this, i'm sympathetic with other people who write posts but lately I've been feeling so weak and can hardly stand and in pain from head to toe,it's even an effort to talk I feel like a zombie.I read other people's posts hoping that I can get it in to my head that i'm not the only one that's suffering but it's not working,I'm sick of trying to convince myself that I can do this when really I know that I can't,I think that 9 years of this shit is enough for me,i'm sick of feeling frustrated about everything this is not a life, this is just barely surviving,sitting on chair all day not wanting to move because of the pain and weakness or sleeping because I'm constantly tired.I PRAISE THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE LEARNT TO LIVE WITH FND AND STILL HAVE A BIT A LIFE🎖BUT RIGHT NOW I'M FINDING THAT VERY DIFFICULT. Right now i'm sitting crying and my brain is constantly telling me to take an overdose to get away from this hell,I wished I could just go to sleep and never wake up.I wish everyone on this site all the best with getting help and to recover from FND,I MEAN THIS WITH ALL MY HEART TAKE CARE.X

[Lady4]

I hope you have a team of professionals and family giving you support.

FND is difficult to navigate, I do hope you have managed to get some rest.

Although, I try and remain upbeat its not always that way, its tough and we hear you.

[Hidden in reply to Lady4]

Thanks for taking the time to reply,who would you see to find out if you had ataxia.

[Lady4 in reply to Hidden]

Hi, I think the GP can, who diagnosed your FND?

[Redlady39]

I’m sorry this is such a late reply, but I hope you are feeling better mentally! I’m glad you’re still here! There’s always hope of getting better, maybe if you don’t have any FND friendly hobbies you can find something that may interest you! You matter and the world is better with you in it! 💕🙏🏻

[Hidden in reply to Redlady39]

Awww thanks for the lovely message,the only thing that's keeping me here's at the moment is my gran waens and even that's hard,i've tried to take my life a few times I think it's brilliant when I read posts about how well people cope and I keep trying to convince myself that I can do this.I think i've done not bad living with it for 9 years but I'm now 60 and lately things have got harder i'm at a stage where I need to use the wheelchair more often because my legs and back are so sore and weak,I don't want a life in a wheelchair.Anyway I'm not got to go on and as I've said all this rubbish before. Thanks again for the lovely message.X