Message to myself and others who are struggling.

[GrEeNbEeNs]

TAKE A MOMENT TODAY TO FEEL PROUD OF YOURSELF FOR SURVIVING ALL THE DAYS THAT FELT IMPOSSIBLE.😘 I THINK I NEED TO GET THIS PRINTED AND PUT ON MY WALL HOPEFULLY IT WILL HELP WI TH MY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. TAKE CARE.😂 FACE JUST NOW,HOPEFULLY 😄 FACE SOON.X

[MzLee88]

Love this so much. I agree. We all should have this on a wall or mirror to remind ourselves every single day. We are so much stronger than I think we probably all thought we would ever be.

[GrEeNbEeNs in reply to MzLee88]

Thanks for your reply.

[GrEeNbEeNs in reply to MzLee88]

Thanks for your reply.

[Westie_1]

Wow I needed this so so much today. I just did not realise how much ! Thank you GrEeNbEeNs❤️

[Panther5000]

Do you have a crisis hot line programmed into your phone and an action plan for when things get hard? These were essential when my daughter had suicidal thoughts. Our house is also set up to delay anyone from accessing knifes, rope,or pills. They say if you can delay yourself for 60 seconds from harmful things then reason can prevail. Just remember you are needed here.

[Lady4]

Hi, your doing amazing, but please reach out to a helpline if you feel like your not coping. Are you UK or US?

[GrEeNbEeNs in reply to Lady4]

I'm UK yes I am trying my hardest to keep myself alive I had the crisis team in my house from the mental health clinic I attended, I had phoned them for help,I handed over 7 pkts of Nurofen that I had to take an overdose.I suffer from borderline personality disorder I was meant to get help with that but I cancelled the appointment because talking hasn't stopped me from trying to take my life in the past,6 times in just over a year. I need to be here because my wee grandson got put in to care and he adores me i'm allowed to see him every Two months.I just can't cope with the constant battle in my head I can't put in to words how frustrated i'm because I so badly want to be dead but i'm being made to stay alive because of my grandson,I feel terrible for saying that because I love the wee man more than anything on this earth..Thanks for your reply.X

[Lady4 in reply to GrEeNbEeNs]

How old is he?

Perhaps if you get help with managing your symptoms, this in turn help should help lower your anxiety levels. The best way to deal with FND is to have a multi-disciplinary team supporting us, thats OT, PT (preferably neuro) and psychology and to try and practise light rejuvenating exercise like yoga, good for mind and body.

Do you have a social worker or family member that can help you access these services?

[GrEeNbEeNs in reply to Lady4]

I don't have a social worker I do have 2 sons but they work, I have gave up trying to get help,don't think I would do any sort of exercise because my legs are always numb and in pain,I have to lie in my bed somtimes for atleast an hour before I can even move in the morning.Need to go to my bed i'm so drained my friend was on the phone and it take a lot out of me.

[GrEeNbEeNs in reply to Lady4]

My wee grandson is 9 his mum put him in to care behind my son's back I put money away for him for when he gets his own house I know that's years away so he'll be loaded LOL I don't want him to want for anything or to struggle he's been through enough I worry about how it's going affects him when he's older because she puts him in to care and kept his brother Ba£ta&D, my grandson has got ADHD.He is better of in care atleast he's being looked after properly and his foster parent is lovely so overall he's got a much better life.

[Lady4 in reply to GrEeNbEeNs]

Oh bless, he sounds such a sweet little boy and ADHD can be challenging so its good he has someone to meet his daily needs and that you can both get to see him too.

Hopefully the siblings will re-unite when they are older too.