I am bamboozled by what is causing so much pain in my tired beaten up pain ridden body a year ago I was diagnosed with FND which I knew nothing about as I didn’t know it was an illness untill I googled it but then it left me so confused 😐20 years ago I was diagnosed with ME/chronic fatigue after a bad bout of flu 🤧 which floored me and after that my life was stollen from me robbed of all the wonderful things like gardening, walking dogs 🐶 going on adventures .....more or less trapped to a life indoors apart from the odd day out which left me tired and weak, then 10 years later diagnosed with fibromyalgia the pain worsened to an occasional day with painkillers for the bad pain untill now having to take them everyday but the shit thing about it is it doesn’t take all the pain away just the worst of it, it took me a long time to get it through my head that I couldn’t do the things I loved to do but as hard I tried the harder I was knocked back with fatigue and pain year after year of trying but no improvement just a steady decline of poorer health, I miss seeing family 😭 friends I used to have are long gone, I am now trying to do things that make me happy indoors but as an artist when the hands are weak and sore it stops me in my tracks, my head is swimming with ideas but I just can’t lift a pencil then I have to get a bundle of cushions and prop arms head and settle down in the sofa and watch some documentaries thank god for television.
I am very grateful of having the things that so many people don’t have and the trick to a positive mind to improve health is being grateful and taking baby steps on very bad days after all there are people in this world who are much less fortunate and seeing the news there are many terrible events 😱 to prove that.
my mum always used to say “count your blessings and name them one by one” it does help put things in perspective it really does.