Oh I've had a jolly old week,have had a horrid virus thing that has knocked me flat. I'm assuming its down to the stress of the week before last. It's also made me very low in myself which doesn't really take much these days. Coping with that on top of fibro has just not been funny in the slightest. I am sick to death of trying to cope. Oh but you have nooooo choice do you.
My main worry at the moment is working. It's driving me insane trying to think go something to do so I don't have to fight the benefit system. For those of you that don't know I am in the wonderful(believe me it's not) in the position if living off my hard working parents inheritance which is disappearing scarily fast. I've tried various re training efforts only to fail quite spectacularly,I simply am too unwell but that just makes me more angry. I'm so angry I could burst. Yes I do see a counsellor but she can't wave a magic wand can she? Funnily enough she has fibro too so she s able to work so why can't I??? My ex husband works and has a good wage and a good life and I am struggling like crazy to pay for the kids and keep things going,while he is able to work. I am sick of seeing things about scroungeers and that our illness is in our heads,why do we have to fight to prove ourselves? I'm going to give back my mobility car and go back to work I just can't stand this I really can't.
I'm sorry but life is not all roses Infact as far as I can see it stinks,really stinks. I have to partner to rely on and probably never will as I can't trust anyone. What sort of a life is this?
I do apologise to everyone I wish I could be sunny and smiley but I just don't feel like it.