I have always tired to write happy blogs despite how I feel but was shattered today I have been short paid on weekky miney mid january and the miney I revealed was in itself short was told iaken off incapacity as I am over 60 this was tracked in when my husband dried a month ago I have to
Apply for pension it will take 14days then told as i am not on benefits no housing or coucil so my rent etc is falling behind I caanot have them reinstated until I done pension credit after pension still no income....
A letter then arrives telling me to repay 154 over piad to my husband in error which used on the funeral I took a loan from now cash strapped friend of 2500 pds as I was told dss would pay me back within 30 days I has been informed they cant pay for funeral as I am now no longer listed on benefits so I am not coping with robs death after sitting with him for10 hours holding his hand while he died
Now have no income for a while owe money I cant repay rent in arrears all will be back paid I hear yes but wot about now how do I live and do I really want to ...
Cant take a loan or get a grant as I am no longer on benefits and a loan will just drop me deeper into trouble
Sorry for whinig and crying vicrtm but Iive alone andmhave no family around me my children went on the attack while dad was dying my son refused to see his dad before he died I qm feeling isolated and the stress is creating a bad flare up am on max meds for fibro and heart failure to depressed sore and weary to even feed my beloved kitties
My full box of tramadol seems like a good supper tonight