the last three days i've done nothing but wonder what the point of being here is really all about
we are meant to be put on this earth to live , but do we really live with these illness (ME/CFS ,Fibro,depression) because to me this is not living it's just existing .
i always thought at the age of 38 i'd be living life to the full (my daughter leavng home ) i'd be doing all the things i'd never got to do when i was younger because i was busy being a single mum who worked her buttom off and for what ?
i'm now to ill to do anything , can't travel which was something i'd thought i'd be doing , no man in my life , no job , friends that don't bother , daughter that can't be bothered , stuck in 24/7 and loneliness .
this week has just been crap and as left me feeling so very very low and very frustrated.
on top of all the stress and pain i'm already under i've had the cyst on my shoulder (under the skin ) come up from an infection which i'm on meds for and have to wait to have removed , the nerve in my back has been in spasm so been playing my legs up , i've got my ESA appeal in two weeks time which i'm deading (and have to go alone because no one can be assed to go with me )i've had treament twice this week which was the biggest waste of time .
i just can't stop crying where i'm so feed and up frustrated of this so called life