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[Debsdelight3108]

Good Morning you Lovely lot,xxxxxxxx

I have had to change all my stuff because I'm crud at computer stuff, Found it easier to just start again,

I WAS Debsdelight72,😃

I type long stuff, Sorry cant help it, Try not to It's just me😄

I love cats and dogs,A favoured friend /Sister on here also, Morning Sis xxxxx (I bet she wont comment)🤫 And of course my Husband (John) 20 yrs married so far 😍😍😍

(I'll PM later Sis )

I have two Yorkies,both female 13 yrs old and one 4 yr old and until late last year I had a 20 yr old cat😭😭 I am researching and saving up for two kittens 🐱🐱, It's not as easy as it sounds, I keep changing my mind on which breed 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗,Or just a good moggy,

I don't like people who take the 🤬🤬 and take advantadge out of kind and vunerable folk, I now have hardly any friends because they were not true friends once they learnt I would never drink far too much alcohol and act a prat, Apart from my 2 step children (Not children anymore) and I am Granny since 2weeks ago!😍😍😍😍😍😍 My own 4 brats decided I was not wanted in their lives anymore, since 2011,and are in touch with "the thing that gave birth to me" So all the abuse from childhood is not true?????????? disbelived again *soz*and joined the cult that is to rid me of this world (hasn't worked so 🤐🤐🤐 far) can do one, bunch of 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬💩💩

I cant spell for toffee a lot since Fibromyalgia gave me a gift or two, (Brainfog and the ability to fall over freshair and a lot more besides)

My mental health is a huge burden I have since teenager,💩💩I've tried to get out of it ( life) many times but promised Hubby I'll try harder and let him know when the urge is too great to handle on my own🥹🥹

I have tried pretty much all of prescribed (and a few not) pain meds If it works to start with you can bet it wont be for long 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

I'm 💩 with a computer (as you can see)

I was a bus driver for many years until Fibro and symptoms took that away too,

I have many many Hobbies too many 😄😄 to write, so I wont! But the latest is 5d diamond painting and am in a on-line art tutorial, Not the best ,so it's a good job I have it for life to pop in and out when I wish, My (so called) art is mainly drawing people and animals as cartoon types,

I self-doubt (A LOT)

Still waiting for my bathroom grant to get started! I hate WAITING!

Still waiting for my dentures, (19/3) to have a fitting and colour chosen cant WAIT!

I am the only cause for not having any teeth at the ripe old age of nearly 53, One of my 💩💩 things when I was having a crises of mental health was not to give an absolute💩 about looking after myself,Not even brushing my teeth for over a year, ( disgusting! I wouldn't recommend)Or going to dentist (wouldn't recommend that either)

Ended up having to be under general anastetic *soz* to have the remaining teeth out(I Wouldn't recommend that either) Had the gastric band done over 10 years a go (Imust be the only one out there to put on more weight instead of lose it)

I would definetly *soz*not recommend going down that route either!!!! So all I could eat was soft and mushy foods that quickly turned into an ice cream addict!!!!!! mashed potato and anything that would go down, A waste of £5,000 and health problems galore,( went private and fibbed ) So now I am trying a jab (not Juniper) My guy in Liverpool suggested (I have some comestic *soz* work on my lips and under my nose because 30 odd years of smoking ( absolutely NOT recommend) I gave up for good Oct 2015!yeahhhh go me! 😀,

I am house bound and pretty much bed ridden as my old back issue and Fibro are not my friend (as well as everything on top, So the only time I go out is to go to appointments (hosp,dent and doc) So much anxiety that I have to take many many Diazepam''s to get out!!

I also have a touch of OCD, counting mainly but not this post hopefully🤔🤔 Oh 💩

I now rely *soz* totally on the power chair, Inside and out 😢😢 If I stand up I have minimal time before my back feels like it's disintegrating pain like you wouldn't believe and my feet feel like I'm stepping on lego or an upturned plug( yes I have done that too) Not recommended!

When I look at what and who I used to be it saddens me greatly and I grieve often, But here I am larger than I have ever been and sooooooo very sad at times "whoa is me"

So I intend to stop paying £250 a month on jabs for weight lose and concentrating on making the best of what I have and use the money on going places looking good ( Hubby thinks I'm beautiful he's bias)and having more clothes then pjamas would be a start,

Now I am exhausted but in a surprising way,

It's Lamb shank (sorry baby sheepy, Lamb and chicken are the only meat I can eat with out seeing it again)today and pavolova *soz*for afters Hubby shopping and brings me a costa frappe every time he goes out, (I wish he wouldn't go out so often, I'm too weak to say NO,)

I suffer from (amongst other stuff) insomnia big style, (Until last night????????) Only sleeping about 2-4 hours at night and 10min what I call, power naps throughout the day This last week was reduced to 1-2 hrs, Not asking for advice, Been there done it all, Next stop sleep clinic,

* Warning* Warning* Warning*

I SLEPT FROM 9pm until 7am this morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pity I am not refreshed but I'll take it🥹🥹

So there you go folks, A renewed not Debsdelight72 anymore, Just a change

Everyone have a good as can be Sunday and be kind to yourselves and others

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If I've made 1 person smile today then I'll be happy

Take care Debs xx

[heartmatters1]

Sorry you are having to suffer like that, but keep up with your sense of humour 😜, as a late friend of ours used to say “it’s only a game”. Try & stay positive (I know it’s difficult) believe me who suffers with terrible anxiety 😵‍💫. Look forward to the warmer days to come

You are not alone here. Best wishes 🤗

[Gigiruth]

Hi Debsdelight3108Welcome back.

Life can deliver some rough times. Good to hear you are cherished by your Hubby.

Let's hope for Spring,even if it's just through an open window.

Take care of yourself

Gigi

[Debsdelight3108 in reply to Gigiruth]

Thank you Gigiruth for your reply,

I have made a promise to my Hubby that I will try and get outside this spring, My poor garden needs me,

A trip to a garden centre sounds good, It would be better if I could do it without anxiety meds

🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼

I had flowers on my Wisteria last year,The first time I've actually managed over a good few years, I fancy some gladdiolas *soz* I also planted an apple and a pear tree 2020 and they are producing a lot of fruit, Having a bash at making some jam 😁😁

[redkite55]

Hi Debs, sorry you har gone through so much. I used to worry about my fibro fog, at first I was convinced I was getting dementia, but now I have learnt to laugh at the daft things I do or say. I also have not been to the dentist for many years. I hated it as a child and I have a nervous cough, one day when I was 12 and considered old enough to go in on my own, the dentist marched me out of his room to where my mum was waiting and announced in a loud voice that he couldn't treat me as I kept coughing, I was mortified. Once I had left school I refused to go anymore, until I got tooth ache about 10 years later. I continued to go until 2005 when I suddenly became allergic to birds ( we had kept budgies and cockatiels for 8 years) and couldn't breathe very well so my visit to the dentist was a nightmare, I haven't been since.

I also love Costa frappes and have one every time we go to Tesco, I always had the coffee or caramel ones but tried the strawberries and cream one last week, my new favourite.

Have the best week you are able and look after yourself as much as you can. X

[Debsdelight3108 in reply to redkite55]

😋 Caramel all day long😋

thank you for your reply,

I would cry so hard as a child with the Dentist, Got a clip round the ear outside for wasting every ones time?? As a pre-fibro I would go for a pull out every year or so,I had no choice but to go 2022 emergency, root canal was done which wasn't too bad, Until one of my front teeth had a hairline split, I still recon that was because of the root canal one,

When I was in hospital after a small stroke It split completely so I pulled the rest of it out😮😮🦷

Fast forward a bit and a new dentist, All my teeth were gradually coming out until the Fibro meant it didn't matter how much pain killer she put in did nothing!

Thank goodness I was offered a general for the remainder out, It's been a while and another dentist this wednesday I have a fitting for a full set of dentures 🥹🥹

WoooHooo, My first thing to eat when I'm all toothed up??? No laughing!

A cheese and cucumber sandwich,,Hmmmmm

Take care

Debs x

[honeybug]

Hi Debs 🤗🌿🌸🦋

Remember me??? I’m sorry about all the negative things you’ve endured and hope you are in a better place atm.

I can relate to much of what you wrote in your post and empathize with those issues.

I have lost 3 loved ones in 18 months and the stress of it all has taken a toll on me beyond belief. I’ve always been able to endure and carry on but not since these deaths ( brother mom and dad). I’m the sole survivor of my family now…quite unbelievable really.

I wanted you to know that I’m still your friend and all you have to do is PM me. I’ll be happy to to chat with you. Because my brain fog has intensified since my loss of loved ones and I wont remember your new moniker…apologies Debs.

Love and prayers sweetie ,

EJ 🤗🩷🥰🙏🕊️🌿🌸🦋

[Debsdelight3108 in reply to honeybug]

Hey honeybug, Thank you for your reply,

I have to get into a mindset that I HAVE to be a stronger person just copeing with the daily stuff, seems so hard,

You are an amazing person to carry on, I'm afraid to say I am weak and would take the easy way out every time 🥹🥹🥹Looking forward to finding 2 new Kitties🐱🐱,

My Millie who passed was giving me high fives and sitting on command, She'll be a hard act to follow,

Have the best day you can EJ Take it easy and take care

Debs

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[honeybug in reply to Debsdelight3108]

Love you my friend. 🤗🩷🥰🙏🕊️🌿🌸🦋