I’m writing this from my hospital bed, where I’ve been for the past week and a bit. I thought the daily pain from my fibromyalgia was the worst of my problems this time two weeks ago, then I was suddenly struck down with an abscess which was drained under general anaesthetic. Then I was struck down hard by Sepsis, a bowel infection and a severe strain of flu. I’m told I nearly died. The only thing I can remember of those times when I was really ill, was that I knew I was dying. I also wanted to die as the pain was that unbearable. I remember then seeing my Aunt, who died 20 years ago and then as if by a miracle my body started reacting positively to the sepsis shock treatment I received. It wasn’t my time to go thankfully And now, here I am able to write this message and wonder how my body can keep surviving all the years of illness and pain.