We all belong to a unique group, the butterfly warriors as I call it (sounds so much nicer than the 'F' word!
None of us want to be in this group. We don't pass a test. We don't sign up and for most of us we can't just leave.
I constantly find myself moaning - the pain is awful, I can't sleep yet I'm always tired, no one is listening, nothing is making this better, why am I not me anymore.... the list goes on and on....
But through this page I have realised something. For every ache I feel there is another butterfly warrior out there feeling the same ache. At 2.37am when I wake up in pain because I feel like someone is stabbing my legs there is another butterfly warrior feeling the same pain. Every time I have to leave work early or phone in sick because my whole body hurts, I can't remember my name and my life becomes too much to bare there is another butterfly warrior feeling the same way.
What I guess I'm trying to say is, although I haven't been on here long, I haven't made friends with you all, I don't have 'followers' and I probably won't ever meet you, THANK YOU.
Even though you have your own butterflies to fight, your own tiredness, pain and anguish. You have taken the time to help me fight mine. You've given suggestions, help and guidance. You've explained your tricks to help survive.
You've given me hope, you've made me feel like someone understands me and that means more to me than anything. The posts I've read have made me laugh, made me cry and made me understand. I don't feel alone anymore. I don't feel like I'm not normal. I feel like there is somewhere I can turn to when I feel like I can't cope anymore and just want to curl up and cry.
So thank you, you amazing, strong, wonderful, kind and caring Butterfly Warriors you rock 🦋💜