It's been one of those weeks!
I was doing so well in being positive and focusing on other things(have report deadlines due and succesfully getting a second interview for a new job!)
But now its all come to a head after having another mothers day go by with no child of our own, I found out yesterday that one of my friends is "accidentally" 18 weeks pregnant with her first child. I am happy for her but so jealous and angry at the same time! Why not me?!! I hate feeling broken and like im not a "proper" woman.
We are still waiting to hear from the fertility clinic about the date for our first appiontment. We filled out and posted our referral questionairre on monday 1st class (as I didnt want any un-necessary delays) Any of you ladies know roughly how long it will take the clinic to get in touch with a date? This waiting and not being able to do anything is so frustrating. Have any of you got any tricks to try and shake this feeling of being broken? I am hoping to start some accupuncture in two weeks to see if this helps me at all so will keep you posted.
I really had to rant after my cry yesterday and you guys are always so great and understanding. No one else I speak to seems to understand.