Mothers Day...

[Italy300618]

The day I always hope would fill my heart with joy, also a day I thought would perhaps be a good omen for a positive outcome...I was meant to start down regulation tomorrow. My clinic said I could go ahead but it would be a freeze all cycle and meds would be reduced to prevent ohss. 2 things that would not work in our favour.😫💔 After changing clinic after 2 failed cycles, we were finally prepared (with borrowing lots of ££) for our best shot at this. Hubby to have a fresh sperm retrieval on day of egg collection, changing protocol, more supplements and ££ a month, AOA and finally a consultant who gave a s**t.

But it was not meant to be, weve decided to postpone, with all this madness. I have been so stressed this week, at points even more so than the 2ww, and we hadnt even started. Imagine what my emotional toll would be with hormones injected not knowing from one day to next if this was to be cancelled or if we were to fall ill. Honestly this week, ladies with all of you despairing with your cycles cancelled I have really felt for you, hearts breaking all over this forum, including mine 😭who would have predicted this would have stopped us from having a family? I mean...really?

All I can say is for those who are going through treatment, I wish you all the best of luck, stay safe and well and I hope for BFPs all round. For those with their successful pregnancies sending you big cuddles and do what you can to keep yourselves and baby safe 💗

And those who have been told they cant go ahead, made the heartbreaking decision not to go ahead themselves or those who have been cancelled half way through, we are all in it together, it is devastating, we are all so desperate at the chance of having a family, and it's been taken away from us. But it's only temporary it will happen with better circumstances. Lots of love to you all xxx

[cggregory]

It’s such a rollercoaster, isn’t it? Thanks for the thoughtful post. Sending love right back to you ❤️

[Italy300618 in reply to cggregory]

It really is, thank you 💗 xx

[Keepingfaith85]

What a beautiful post 💖 This will not be forever, the madness will disappear and you have everything in place for future success 😘

[Italy300618 in reply to Keepingfaith85]

Thank you for your reply xx

[Megandmog]

Sorry to hear you’ve had to postpone too, Italy. It’s just such a shit situation for all involved. The hardest part is not knowing when we will be able to restart treatment. I guess we just all have to be thankful we have our health and a good support network. We’re all in this together! xxx

[Italy300618 in reply to Megandmog]

Its definitely the hardest part! Can only hope that will be sooner rather than later 🤞 we are all ok it together, and that is comforting 🥰 xx

[Ranchu90]

I am down reg now and Spain is on lockdown 😂 as you can imagine there is no chance for us to flight there. I will carry on until the end of this month what else can I do, cannot stop just right in the middle.

I am always thinking that after lockdown will be many pregnant 🤰 😂. I won’t be one of them as I am down reg 🥴🤪😂😁

[Italy300618 in reply to Ranchu90]

Poor thing, have they advised you to carry on with medication?

I definitely wont be one of them either, we cant get pregnant naturally 😔 not even a chance. Hope you're doing ok xx

[Ranchu90 in reply to Italy300618]

Clinic told us that they are closed until 31st of March, we will call them on first week of April to discuss the next step. Anyway I have no hopes that we carry on with stimulation 😏

How unlucky we are!! 😤

All the best!❤️

[Italy300618 in reply to Ranchu90]

Let me know how it goes, will keep everything crossed. Good luck xx 💗

[Mrsmc2019]

💪🏻❤️Xx

[Stevie85]

So sorry to hear this. Mothers Day is such a tough time in many ways. I am feeling it especially this year as my Mum is very I'll with cancer and there is all that comes with that too 😔

It definitely sounds like you made the right call to delay your treatment. You would always question whether it was the right call if it doesn't work with them altering meds etc. At least this way you know you are giving it your best shot.

Sending lots of love xx

[Italy300618 in reply to Stevie85]

Thank you for your reply. Im so sorry to hear your mum has cancer, cant imagine how difficult that is for you all 😔 will be a tough day for many tomorrow.

Just been for a lovely long walk in the sunshine, did me the world of good ☀️ it will happen when it's meant to...hopefully 🤞xx

[CLDxxx]

It’s such a tough time 😔 sending you so much love and hope for when things are better 💕xxxx

[Italy300618 in reply to CLDxxx]

Thank you xx

[Net25]

Beautiful post ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[ttcemmie]

Sorry that this terrible situation has impacted your plans in this way. IVF is stressful enough without the added stress of all this! I'm glad you've been able to make the right decision for you. Hoping this postponement isn't too long and that you can continue with your journey soon. Lots of love xxx

[Italy300618 in reply to ttcemmie]

Thanks so much 😘 xx

[OlsonM]

Lovely post! Also postponed. All forms were signed/ sent off 4 weeks ago ready to start at end of April- not as close as you! I’ve not even had any meds sent or anything

They say things happen for a reason - let’s hope so xxxx

[Italy300618 in reply to OlsonM]

Aww I'm so sorry, it's really rubbish isn't it. Yes I do hope so, lots of love xx

[Core]

So sorry yours isn’t going ahead but hopefully this is all for a reason and when we can get back to it it’ll be our time xx

[Italy300618 in reply to Core]

I really hope so 🤞🥰 xx

[aamiller405]

It is truely heartbreaking isnt it. Like you Ive made the tough decision not to continue. I should have been having my transfer on Wednesday. I made the decison to stop on Saturday morning and then mothers day was today

sometimes it just feels like everything is against you doesnt it? All we can do is hold on to the hope that our time will come.. this too shall pass... sending love xoxo

[Italy300618 in reply to aamiller405]

It really is heartbreaking, I saw your post and could really relate. It does feel like the world is against us at the moment, and I hate the uncertainty of it all. I like to have a plan. The nurse said to call up when things have settle down to see if they are doing transfers again. Did they mention any timings to you?

I guess they dont know 😥

I was thinking perhaps roughly June for medication and July for transfer. Well that's what I'm working towards. I cant stand thinking who knows when it could be. Its depressing, I hope you're doing ok, here if you want to chat xxx

[aamiller405 in reply to Italy300618]

Yes I'm very like you and need to have a plan.. I asked my consultant the other day and he just said honestly nobody knows a time frame at this stage.. Thank you so much.. Same to you x

[Italy300618 in reply to aamiller405]

Hopefully it will become more clear in a couple of months. Weve just got to keep going, chins up 💗 xxx

[JoP32]

Oh no Italy! Ah gawd, I’m so sorry to read this. Your message however is beautiful, so kind and lovely.

I’m gutted for you, I really am. Hopefully this horrible CV situation will be over sooner rather than later so you and all the ladies can get back on with treatment.

Sending lots of hugs 🤗 💕💐 xxx

[Italy300618 in reply to JoP32]

Thank you my love, I know 😔 I'm absolutely gutted 😥 I know our time will come again but right now it feels so far away. Just hope it all goes as quick as it came! Hope the 2ww is going ok? Xx

[JoP32 in reply to Italy300618]

It will. It really will. But yes, I absolutely understand the feeling of it being so far away atm 😢 Let us know when you get the green light to go ahead - I’ll be thinking of you xx

2ww is going ok thanks hun. Pretty convinced though that it’s not worked but that might just be my brain going into self protect mode in anticipation of disappointment (I’m hoping). I got a BFP 6dp5dt last time and today is 6dp5dt so the craziness has amped up significantly since last night! I highly doubt I’ll be able to leave it much longer before poas 🙄🤦🏽‍♀️🤷‍♀️. Xx

[Italy300618 in reply to JoP32]

Thank you, I will do 😘

Aw I think about this time is got to be the worst bit, your mind will play all kind of tricks on you, try not to test early and remember every round is different. Keep going lovely you are doing great, I will be keeping everything crossed for you, eeeek! Xxx

[JoP32 in reply to Italy300618]

Aw, thank you so much! Yeah, I keep reminding myself that - every round is different!

I would like to say I will promise to try & not test early but I don’t want to lie to you! 😂😂😂 I have the patience of a 5 year old! 😂🤦🏽‍♀️ Xxx

[Italy300618 in reply to JoP32]

😅🤣🤣🤣 xx