Went back to see my fertility doctor few weeks ago,had finished my 6 month course of clomid. Went back on the understanding that there was no way i could have another course of clomid so was thinking that there was going to be another step to what we could try next.
Instead i have been given another 6 month course of clomid and im not totally convinced that it will work after the first 6 months why would i this time.
I have joined weight watchers to help with the weight loss but i have got a long way to go as i have to loss 4 stone to reach bmi goal for ivf,if i get it that is.
I wake up thinking about why cant i have a baby,i dream about being a mum i go to bed thinking about it.Get really annoyed with myself that im not able to conceive.Im am also finding people close to me keep asking when is there going to be a new addition to the family as i don't want everyone knowing we have a problem. If i get one more person telling me to just relax and stop thinking about it,it will happen grrrrrrrrrr.
I don't feel like a proper woman and i know how silly it sounds but that's how i feel,i have got no one to really talk to as no one understands as they not been though it.
Sorry if ive rambled on.