💔Holding to a little hope… potential miscarriage🥺

[Sic06]

Yesterday was a thought one….

It was Mother’s day and I had mixed feelings but I tried to be positive and grateful for what I have.

I started my IVF journey last year and ended up with 8 beautiful embryos💕

First FET last June ended up in a chemical pregnancy. I was hart broken, totally devastated and took me a while to recover and kinda overcome this.

Second FET now at the beginning of March followed a positive pregnancy test.

I was over the moon and couldn’t believe my prays have been finally heard. I literally did all in my power to do everything at perfection.

Then, unfortunately, yesterday evening I started bleeding and it was quite heavy including some large blood clots. I did freak out and my heart broke into million pieces 😣 I called 111 but they were not of help at all. Unfortunately, I was alone and didn’t feel strong enough to go to a&e by myself. I managed to go by myself this morning, I was referred straight to the EPU and after a very long wait I had a quick consultation with a nurse but as I was not bleeding they turned me away without a scan as I was told they were full with other more serious emergencies for the day!

No words to say I was totally shocked😑 I am now waiting for the time to pass until I can get a scan at my ACU clinic tomorrow morning to find out what happened… if I miscarried or was just a big scary hematoma 🥺

Honestly I broke down today.. just the weight of it all felt too much and all of this is killing me!

Tomorrow it was supposed to be the best day of my life, seeing my baby and hearing his/her heartbeat and now the idea of finding out an horrible truth is killing me😭

I just want to be a mum so badly and it feels so far out of reach, especially with lots of people around me having babies or that fall pregnant so easily without even looking for a baby!

If feels so unfair and my heart feels so broken 💔 right now it feels like it'll never work…

I really don't know how to carry on and past this😭😭😭

[Cassie_56]

Hi, I’m so sorry you’re experiencing such a heartbreaking time and with so little support and understanding too. I’m not too good with knowing what to say but couldn’t read and just scroll on by. I really pray you get good news tomorrow but must be so hard waiting and not knowing. Much love

[Sweetaholic]

I'm so sorry your having to go through this. It's such a scary and stressful experience. I can't believe how cold they were to you at EPU. You would think given what their job is, they would've had more empathy, particularly when you were alone.

Yes, hoping it was a haematoma. They do seem to be a common occurrence. I've read several posts on here from woman who have had them. At least you have your scan tomorrow, though I know the wait is torture. If things haven't gone as planned, please remember to be kind to yourself. You have done nothing wrong and it isn't your fault. I will be keeping everything crossed for you that you get good news tomorrow xx

[Dietcoke2025]

Just wanted to say I'm so sorry you are going through such an awful time and didn't receive the support that you should have done at the EPU. I really hope you have people around you that you can lean on and am wishing you so much luck for your scan. Sending you lots of love x

[Christianbaby]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You’re being so strong. I hope your scan brings good news. xx

[Marley15]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, and it’s awful that you seem like you didn’t get any help. My heart is breaking for you I know that longing, I just want to send you all my love xx

[Sic06]

Thank you all for the kind words, thoughts and prayers, very appreciated 🙏🏻

My husband and I wanted to keep our IVF journey private so I really do not have much support or chance to talk with someone other then my husband.

It is actually very nice to have this space were people can open up, can relate and understand as they share similar experiences.

I just posted an update and thanks God there is still a little hope🙏🏻 ✨

I will keep posting with updates!

Thank you all again for your support💕

[Wishinandahopin]

I really hope you’ve had your scan and everything is ok 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

I’m so so sorry it’s so scary. I had lots of heavy bleeding with clots around week 5/6 or pregnancy but luckily it was ok in the end (it was a hematoma). I really hope you’ve are as lucky as I was. Xx