Moments of Merriment

[Darcy1996]

Dear all, I’ve not posted in awhile here since our third round failed, but I check in & wanted to say Merry Christmas to you all, I’m so grateful to you all.

Whether you’re hibernating through the holidays, running away from the Great-Aunt that keeps asking when you’ll have kids, avoiding the baby announcements on socials, seeing the younger sibling that seems to have got your % of fertility in the family, or just white knuckling through with gritted teeth, I hope you find peace, some joy & some moments to yourself if that’s what you need.

All the best to all in this TTC space, wherever you’re at in the “journey”. 💜🎄

[Lana89]

Hi lovely merry Christmas to you xx

[Darcy1996 in reply to Lana89]

And to you Lana89, hope todays been ok 💜

[Lana89 in reply to Darcy1996]

Hi lovely yes it’s been ok think I’ve eaten a bit to much tho lol hope you have had an ok day to thanks for the nice message today darling ❤️

[Darcy1996 in reply to Lana89]

Ha, me too, I’m SO full, I think we’re allowed some time off, we have all earned it 💜

[Endofitall]

Hoping you’re having a peaceful Christmas ❤️🎄. Thank you for the lovely message.

We spent it just the two of us and that felt right.

[Darcy1996 in reply to Endofitall]

That sounds peaceful & perfect! We’ve had my parents here & mother-in-law, have my niece, brother & SIL tomorrow so braving myself….

[Endofitall in reply to Darcy1996]

I hope it’s been enjoyable with no challenging moments 🤞🏼

[AnotherLaura]

merry Christmas Darcy ❤️ all the best to you, with prosperous and happy wishes for 2025 ❤️

[Darcy1996 in reply to AnotherLaura]

And to you, I hope the holidays have been bearable so far

[AnotherLaura in reply to Darcy1996]

I know it sounds weird but I've gone in to completely numb, sociopath mode. I have this bubbling anger but at the same time I don't care. It's like I'm someone else, just thankful to not be balling my eyes out every day but now I'm void of emotion.

I start my next round in two weeks. C'mon 2025!!! Give us a year to remember fondly!

[Darcy1996 in reply to AnotherLaura]

All the fingers & toes crossed!!

[Milo2011]

thank you Darcy. Xmas just feels strange this year! We had my in laws over for a few days and can’t wait for them to go so I can have some time to myself … I’ve never been so antisocial around Xmas but perhaps the exhaustion and heartbreak just takes it out of us l! Wishing you a merry Xmas and a happy new year lovely… and best of luck for the future xx

[Darcy1996 in reply to Milo2011]

I completely understand, I love my family to bits but my brother & SIL were here with my baby niece today….my mum is a doting grandmother and I found myself wondering if I had a DE baby would it be as loved, and/or would we ever be as lucky, however that child (hopefully 🤞comes). Thankfully my brother doesn’t ask about my news so no questioning came our way….and the busyness & distractions worked a treat.

Hope you got/will get some time out for you, and all the best for New Year 💕

[emmiettc]

Thank you Darcy. I am so thankful for this community and the support we provide each other. Merry Christmas. xxx

[Darcy1996 in reply to emmiettc]

Gosh me too, this forum has given me sage advice, good steers or areas to research & so much camaraderie. Hope you had a good Christmas Emmie 💜🎄

[Jam1111111]

Merry Christmas and best wishes for 2025 xx

[Darcy1996 in reply to Jam1111111]

And to you Jam, thank you

[Mercury363]

Darcy1996 what a lovely post, you made me smile. I hope you had a lovely Christmas whatever the circumstances. We had a great one in our house and while lamenting my loss that wasn't here to join it with us (November due date, that I lost early and know no one else thought about yesterday!) My near two year old had a great time with his grandparents and I am very lucky to have him with my personal circumstances! Feeling grateful today for him and this forum, you ladies have been my strength on many an occasion this year! Happy Christmas! Xx

[Darcy1996 in reply to Mercury363]

Happy Christmas to you too, and wonderful you had such a great time with your little boy, but I’m so sad to hear of your loss. Hope you found small moments for you 💜

[Xmishell37]

Found out our 3rd round failed on Xmas day, broken and just all round sad, didn't bother going to hospital for my blood test just to be told the bad news, not sure how we go on from here but just wanted to send lots of love your way ❤️ xx

[Darcy1996 in reply to Xmishell37]

I’m so incredibly sorry. There’s no good time of year to experience that but Christmas Day 💔 hope you can hibernate & process x

[Xmishell37 in reply to Darcy1996]

Hibernating all of January is what I plan to do! ❤️ Xx

[Milo2011 in reply to Xmishell37]

I’m sorry to hear that! If it makes you feel better just remember that you are not alone! We also had a failed DE cycle just before Xmas with zero embryo to transfer… it was devastating and I know exactly what you’re talking about… I was crippled for days and didn’t leave my bed… didn’t eat or drink just locked myself in my bedroom with curtains closed to process how unlucky I am to be with an infertile man! And as you said I see ppl on social media showing off their newborns and that just makes me feel jealous as hell. I wish you best of luck with your next cycle … they say we shouldn’t lose hope so fingers crossed for you 🤞 xxx

[Xmishell37 in reply to Milo2011]

Sorry to hear you didn't get food news either ❤️ I deactivated my social media specifically to avoid pregnancy announcement as they always come this time of year, but was still told of one (my partner's cousin) which just stung. It seems endless for everyone else. I don't have any more cycles left on NHS (I'm in Scotland) so need to go to a private clinic so I'm already stressed about the financial side, it's horribly expensive 😔 xx

[BenjitheG]

Happy Christmas to everyone on this forum, wishing you the very best wherever you are on this journey.

I needed to read this post today. One of my friends sent me “the expecting text message”, on Boxing Day , the one I find the hardest to read and process. I’m pleased for her but it’s so hard it’s taken me years and years (8 in fact) and I haven’t even got to a positive test yet but it happens for her the first month of trying.

Starting our 3rd round very early next year and the number of people I have told is extremely small, people who understand my unique challenges so far and I know aren’t going to tell me their own pregnancy news, they are just there for me and are firmly in my corner. You need them you really do as my fertility therapist said it’s really important to find your support crew, people that support you at different times and in different ways. I find the change in friendships and the change in the time available for friendships one of the hardest bits of navigating this complex phase of my life.

Sending positives vibes for you all in 2025.x

[Darcy1996 in reply to BenjitheG]

Oh goodness I’m sorry receiving that text must have been hard. I’m glad you have a great crew around you, that’s so so important & a plan for New Year. All the best!

[SushiTilly]

thank you for the message, so true. Wish you peaceful time and retail therapy for bargains in those shops.

[Darcy1996 in reply to SushiTilly]

The multitude of sale emails is definitely a distraction!

[Darcy1996 in reply to SushiTilly]

And thank you, you too