It was too good to be true

[hifer]

Sadly my miracle pregnancy has come to an end. Scan today showed an empty sac at 7 weeks and the hCG in the blood just isn't high enough. Am going on holiday tomorrow so have the option to continue meds so that I don't miscarry whilst away or just stop now.

I thought at my age it wouldn't be viable and yet am still devastated. It hurts every time. This is my fourth miscarriage and I'm so upset that as someone who is desperate for a baby I just can't make it stick. It's the same almost every time (apart from when I've had a heartbeat and lost it which I suppose is worse).

Sending more positive vibes to others at this time. I know how hard it can be.

xx

[Rowan80]

So sorry to hear this. It’s really unfair and you just don’t deserve this. Miscarriages are heartbreaking and you have such a difficult decision ahead of you. Sending you love and strength at the difficult time x

[CyclingAddict]

I'm so sorry to hear this. I've been following your journey and hoped so much that this one would be the one to stick in. As Rowan80 said, it really is unfair.

Please look after yourself ❤. Sending you lots of love x

[Conceivingblee]

Not what we were all hoping to hear for you. Horrible decision for you now. How long are you away for. If you stopped meds it would be 4/5 days before a bleed if you are on progesterone?. Would you feel better off the meds whilst away. Or would you feel better mentally continuing with them xx sending u lots of strength. Xx

[Crazycatlady007]

sending you lots of love and strength - it’s just not fair 💔 xxx

[Memacha]

I’m so sorry and completely agree that it never feels less painful when it doesn’t work even though you have a doubt in the back of your mind that you can’t be the lucky one. I also recently had a mmc at just over 7 weeks recently with my 6th embryo trying for a sibling. To make matters worse one of my nct friends just had her baby and named him the same as my son! Personally I’d want to enjoy the holiday and not worry about cramping/bleeding whilst away although it is difficult still taking meds to support a pregnancy you know isn’t viable x

[hifer in reply to Memacha]

I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I totally get it. Virtually all my NCT group have had a second child. Sending you big hugs xx

[XOXO13]

I’m really sorry 💔

Today I find out if it’s the end of my pregnancy as well… I’m absolutely dreading it and honestly can’t bear any more of the pain that comes with loss and trying for a sibling.

I think if I were you, I wouldn’t want to risk a miscarriage abroad albeit I know it’s so sad to continue to prevent a miscarriage whilst on your medication. If you can buy yourself a few days to try and sit by the pool, enjoy your family time as much as possible before you come off them, maybe it would be worth doing so?

Sending lots of love. It’s all so, so unfair xx

[hifer in reply to XOXO13]

I’m so sorry. Will be thinking of you. If you can bear it, please keep us posted. I’m heading abroad but will look out for an update. I’ll keep everything crossed for you. I decided to stop all meds. There’s no good time to have a miscarriage and not ideal whilst back at work either so decided to get it over and done with. Thinking of you x

[XOXO13 in reply to hifer]

Thank you, I will do. Take care of yourself and as hard as it is, I hope you find some comfort and closure whilst abroad with your family. I’ll be thinking of you xx

[Twiglet2]

I am so so sorry 😢 absolutely gutted for you 💔 xx

[Booda21]

I’m so sorry to read this. I hope you holiday brings you a well deserved break. Sending you lots of love & hugs 💔 xxx

[Endowarrior36]

I am so sorry for your loss 💔 sending love at this difficult time xxx

[Wishing2023]

I’m so sorry to hear this. I’ve been there both at the first scan at 7 weeks & later after hearing the heartbeat once. It’s heartbreaking! 😢

I recently had my 3rd failed attempt using embryos created from my younger sisters donor eggs. I got the negative on the Wednesday & her wedding was on the Friday where I was Maid of Honour. I was on the highest meds & obviously stopped from the Wednesday & I started bleeding on the Friday night on the dance floor in my bridesmaid dress which was not ideal. I didn’t even consider carrying on the meds to prevent me bleeding so soon 🤦🏼‍♀️😩😢

I hope you have a lovely holiday & a break from it all - I need that so badly but I’m a teacher so just having to carry on until half term! x

[hifer in reply to Wishing2023]

I’m so sorry. That timing for you was truly terrible. You poor thing. Sending lots of love xx

[Catlover89]

I am so so sorry to hear this. Sending you a hug and some love today. Look after yourself and try to relax when u go away ❤️

[Freeway24]

I am so very sorry to hear this. It's absolutely devastating. I know how difficult it is and my heart goes out to you. Be kind to yourself. Xx ❤️

[butterfliez]

I’m so sorry you have suffered another loss. This is heartbreaking after all you have suffered. Sending love & so much strength. Xx