*Sensitive* recurrent MCs, faint bfp

[PenpalLdn]

Hello!

For context, I have a history of early recurrent miscarriages (3 last year), and a toddler. We have now been trying for 18 months, first 8 months with MCs and nothing last 10 months. I have an extremely low amh 1.75 pmol/l, so I was told I should move to IVF. I am due to start IVF medications next month, but we kept trying naturally. I had no symptoms this cycle until yesterday morning (dpo 9) I got headache, so I thought I'd test, fully expecting nothing as with none of my pregnancies I had bfp until dpo 10-11 (I tested since early) and also lack of symptoms is uncommon for me. There was a shadow, that this morning (dpo 10) is faint line. Dpo is from bbt and opks and cm, so should be fairly accurate.I have to start progesterone, aspirin and clexane from bfp I think.

I am oddly calm, with moments of anxiety and being scared. I think it hasn't hit me yet and when it does, I think I'll miscarry again. It has been 10 months since my last miscarriage, so my memories are not as raw.

I am not sure what the next few days/weeks will bring. I don't know if I should start the medications now, it doesn't feel real but also I don't want to sustain too early when it's going to fail, and mess up my cycles. But I think I will start medications as I feel this little embryo could use with some luck. Very mixed emotions, I know it hasn't hit me yet and I'll be a mess. Also I'm thinking whether I just start meds and stop testing.

Please reach out, I need some handholding (and probably more in the next few weeks).

[Hopewhite]

hi lovely wishing you all the best of luck, if you have progesterone you could start this and hopefully the line will be getting stronger within the next week , you could also do blood tests to reassure you. Try to stay hopeful I know how hard it is after miscarriage but hopefully the stars will align for you this time xx

[PenpalLdn in reply to Hopewhite]

Thank you lovely. I really hope this time is successful, but keeping my feet on the ground as it hasn't happened so many times. No symptoms is throwing me off a bit, but it's early days.

[Hopewhite in reply to PenpalLdn]

Hang in there , like you say it is very early still, normally symptoms start showing after week 5-6 and some women don’t even get any ! , I’m very sorry about your tough journey , losses make it extra hard to trust everything will be fine , try to relax and look after yourself, hopefully you’ll start getting some reassurance as weeks go by, try to take one day at a time, sending you love ❤️

[Twiglet2]

progesterone aspirin and clexane shouldn’t mess up your cycles they are just support meds so I would say give them a go and good luck for this little one 🫶🏻🤗 xx

[PenpalLdn in reply to Twiglet2]

💚 thank you. I really hope so too.

[Doodlebug23]

Good luck 🍀 I’d start meds and give the little embryo all the help you can 💖

[PenpalLdn in reply to Doodlebug23]

I'll ask about clexane tomorrow, hope it isn't so difficult to get it. I've started progesterone and aspirin yesterday 🤞🏻

I am calm somehow, this time I'll trust my body, what happens is meant to be.

[Doodlebug23 in reply to PenpalLdn]

My local chemist had to order it in and was always in the next day. Keeping calm I’m convinced has a positive effect. My clinic said cortisol released when you’re stressed doesn’t help. Good luck 🍀

[Fruitandflowers]

It's a really anxious time and the only way I found to get through it was to try and think of each BFP as a completely new chance and that the odds once you have a positive are very much in favour of it lasting, not the other way around. Like others have said the meds you mention shouldn't really impact your cycle, at least not any more than the BFP itself. You may want to stop testing, or carry on with the lines but it always helps me to get repeat HCGs as that way I know where it's going early on. Can you speak to your GP or clinic given your history and that you were about to start treatment? My IVF consultant was really helpful to calm me down when I had my first ever natural pregnancy awaiting a transfer, and my GP was happy to support given my history, but I know not everyone has that experience x

[PenpalLdn in reply to Fruitandflowers]

Thank you 🙏🏻. Unfortunately hcg tests have sent me spiralling last time, as it was doubling exactly on the edge at 65%, then slowly going to 72% a week or two later. So I'll likely just do my lines every morning and hopefully they're not lighter.Yes I'm under the care of a recurrent miscarriage clinic but I moved house so I'll probably just reach out to a private clinic I seeked advice from after my 3rd mc, in the hope it's quicker. Noone actually gave me prescription for clexane, just letters that I should take it, so I'm confused who will give me prescription (do gps do that?)

Thank you again

[Jess1981]

I’m sorry to hear you’ve had recurring miscarriages 😭💔 I’ve had 6 early losses and a late loss - we have 2 living daughters ( a chemical pregnancy before our oldest daughter and a late loss and 2 miscarriages before our youngest daughter and since having her 3 more miscarriages) I understand the fear too well and the way losses suck the joy out of what should be a happy time 😭 The advice is ladies who’ve had losses is to take progesterone even in natural pregnancies I’m assuming you are also under a miscarriage specialist which should offer you 2 extra scabs at 7 and 9 weeks to ease your mind a bit ( even for a few days) The only advice is try to take it one day at a time which I know is rubbish try to celebrate each day you get past. You’ve had a child and there is no reason why this pregnancy can’t be successful too all the best and congratulations xx

[PenpalLdn in reply to Jess1981]

Yes exactly, try to keep going with each day. I haven't even told my husband because I don't quite believe it and don't want to get everyone's hopes up. It's a strange time. Thank you for your support 🙏🏻