OTD - BFN

[Mrs_MT]

I wish my IVF story for a sibling could have turned out differently. Last embryo, last chance and then against all odds - a BFP. But sadly, I have no inspirational IVF fairy tale here.

I know that age is a number and so many women have had successful rounds at a later age than me. But for us, this was our limit - financially and emotionally wise. We are done.

I’m sad, and my husband is even sadder. But in a way, I think we feel some relief knowing that we can move on with our lives now.

I’m going to consider studying again and changing my career, focus on new experiences and get healthier.

To all my BFN mates this round, I’m sorry. It sucks balls. I hope you find your BFP on your next round, or if this is the end for you too - I truly hope you find peace.

To all the BFP mates this round, a big fat congratulations! I honestly get the warmest fuzzies when I see a BFP.

And fertility network and partners - thanks for this forum. The support I’ve received has been invaluable.

Goodluck everyone! Lots of love!

[Darcy1996]

I’m so sorry to read this, and so touched by your warmth for others. All the best for your studies 💜

[Mrs_MT in reply to Darcy1996]

Thank you Darcy1996, I hope so hard that you will find your BFP xx

[Christianbaby]

I'm truly sorry to hear about your challenging IVF journey. Your decision to focus on new experiences, health, and career is commendable. Wishing you and your husband strength and fulfillment in the next chapter of your lives. All the best. xx

[PeppyMiller]

I'm sorry this time wasn't lucky for you, but thank you for your kind words ❤️ I wish you all the best in life post IVF, sometimes you don't realise how much you're giving up until you have that freedom back. Hug your child tight, I make sure you tell her how brave and resilient her mamma is x

[Mrs_MT in reply to PeppyMiller]

thank you lovely. Oh gosh not long until your OTD. How are you feeling!?? X

[PeppyMiller in reply to Mrs_MT]

Only two more days to go! I've been overthinking every single thing happening to my body right now, had one complete meltdown over the weekend (as you do on your 2ww). I've been back at work this week and staying busy has helped. Whatever happens now, we did what we could, and if we have to go for another round hopefully the doctors will come up with new ideas x

[Mrs_MT in reply to PeppyMiller]

Haha yeah is it even a TWW without at least one meltdown??? Hoping you find your BFP!!!!! Xx

[PeppyMiller in reply to Mrs_MT]

Thank you lovely, wishing you all the happiness and peace x

[Doodlebug23]

I hate goodbyes! But good luck for the future and all the new things coming your way!! 😊

[Mrs_MT in reply to Doodlebug23]

me too!! Thanks for the luck xx

[WillowPark]

I'm so sorry Mrs_MT. That was a hard read and I really wish it could have been different for you. And thanks for the wishes. It is true - once you know this horrible journey you wouldn't wish it on anyone, and every positive outcome is a miracle for us all. This might not have been the end you wanted, but at least it is a conclusion - so now you can go off with freedom and enjoy your life without the drain of IVF and TTC. I hope it is amazing and full of happiness 🙂 (But remember, we are still here when the grief hits or any other reason you might need us.)

[Mrs_MT in reply to WillowPark]

Really beautiful words Willowpark 🥹. I’m sad but I feel at peace. Wishing you every success in your own journey xx