11dp5dt and I'm terrified

[Glaedy]

I'm 11dp5dt, this is my 3rd FET transfer. 1st worked and we have our lovely nearly 2yo boy (I had BFP 5dp5dt)

2nd ended last June in a very dramatic miscarriage at 6w5d just 1 day after we were discharged from our fertility clinic with a strong heartbeat ;(

And this is where I am unable not to compare all my FET cycles. This 3rd transfer same as the 2nd FET I had vvfl on HPT on 7dp5dt, I know it could just implanted later, but I am worried about the progression line. All the tests I am using are 10miu/ml and they have such slow progression... I used FRER which had a nice - not as strong but still ok 2nd line, Clear Blue 6 days early I think just hates me because it's barely picking any line.

Boots early pregnancy test picked up BFP even before FRER but there is no line progression while with FRER I can see some but not as good so it would look like it doubles.

And it is exactly the same as with my last transfer which ended up with a miscarriage 🙈 I'm scared that I am reliving the same hell I had to go through in June.

How to stay sane and not overthink when it looks exactly the same as the cycle with a loss 😢

P.S line on the picture looks better because it's dry, when it was in the test time frame it was much lighter

[Cutecolliedog]

I can understand your worry for this, it’s such a horrible wait between test and scan. Could you ask your local EPU to do some bloods 2 days apart? Or would your clinic do this for you to give you piece of mind?

I have also used medichecks finger prick tests for beta hcg that I found really good for piece of mind x

[Glaedy in reply to Cutecolliedog]

My clinic for some reason won't do beta hcg, I think my best option will be asking GP on Monday if they will do it for me. Nenad I couldn't do test this morning because I nearly overslept for work 🙈 so now I'm waiting till I get home to test, I've got last FRER to compare with test from 9dp5dt

[Nenad in reply to Glaedy]

Hope it looks darker for you xxx

[Nenad]

hi there, sorry you’re feeling anxious about all this (perfectly understandable). My sincere advice would be to hold onto this 9dp test and test again on 11dp (if you haven’t already) and compare the two lines. You should have a better idea then. And make sure you’re using the same exact tests when comparing. If not then I agree with the above advice xx

[Kitkat10]

hi, it’s a really anxious time, I can 100% relate. I didn’t have any line progression from day 8-12 and really worried about it and begged my GP for an HCG which she did for me. On my OTD, the line was suddenly darker despite no noticeable progression on the days before. I’m now 17 weeks and I think the dye in the tests are just really not that precise. It’s a tough time to wait through but please try and stay positive. Good luck 🍀🍀 xx

[Glaedy]

I think we are out. I tested yesterday with first response digital (couldn't find FRER) and it came back Yes+ I opened it and it had light but decent 2nd line. I tested today with Boots early which previously had decent lines and it came back negative today. Clear blue (with +) came back with barely visible line.

I feel so sorry for myself and stupid for beliving this will be our last ever transfer and it will be succesful.

Tomorrow is OTD and if sensitive test are coming back nearly not visible I don't have any hope left.

[Nenad in reply to Glaedy]

Sorry you’re not getting the answer you’re hoping for. I would still recommend using the boots ultra early test on your OTD, and if you’re able to do a bHCG blood test, even better xx

[Doodlebug23]

🤞🏼 for you. Please let us know how you get on x

[Hanj10]

I really recommend medichecks to get hcg levels as that’s the only thing that stopped my worry after multiple miscarriages. Everything crossed for you xx

[Cutecolliedog in reply to Hanj10]

Also recommend these 👆it’s clear usually if very low levels then you don’t have to worry about line eyes. Make sure to tick no doctors comments and you usually get results in about 48 hrs

[Here4ivfinfo]

I don’t have anything helpful to say but this touched me. I truly hope this one sticks and stays. I have a friend who had a miscarriage last year and this time round she was spotting lots again so she was really concerned but she’s doing really well and she’s into her second trimester now. So even though it makes sense for you to worry especially because of the similar pattern, even with a similar pattern it might not be the same result 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

[Fruitandflowers]

The only way to get a definitive answer is HCGs, ideally two days apart. The line tests can be influenced by so many factors and they can't tell you HCG level or if it's doubling. Although if the line or digital tests are going veey light or negative then you may prefer not to do the HCGs. After a couple of early losses, and a PUL at 10 weeks, I just want to know what's going on now and it's only ever been HCGs that have given me answers or indicated there's a potential problem. It's so hard though and even if you just go off the lines it's crushing. All I can add is that after our first success I thought the next transfer would work as I assumed my body would 'know what to do' but that was the PUL, then we got a BFN. Then I fell pregnant the month after the BFN, waiting for the next FET. So that's twice now it's been the third time that's worked. 3 of the transfers have been losses which made me worry there was something very wrong with me or the blasts, but I think often we don't know why it doesn't work even when everything looks perfect. I hope everything turns around for you this time but if not just get through each day as best you can and then consider your options when you're ready x

[Glaedy]

Morning all, thank you for all your kind messages. So today is OTD and we are out for sure, 2 top tests are from today (13dp5dt) in person you can still see if you squint something on FRER but clinic test is BFN. That's it for this transfer I guess. Feeling gutted, but I cried out most of my eyes yesterday.

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[Millbanks in reply to Glaedy]

Oh hun, so heartbreaking - I'm so sorry. It's the ultimate cruelty to have a positive turn negative. Sending much love to you xx

[Nenad in reply to Glaedy]

I’m so sorry I’ve had 3 chemical pregnancies before so I really feel your pain. Unfortunately these are very common with IVF, doesn’t make the experience any easier though xx

[RedFox23]

heart broken for you. X