Devastation all over again

[Crie1983]

Had my 6th frozen embryo transfer on 13th December with a 6BB euploid embryo, for the first time ever I caved and tested today with a clear blue non digital test (due a pregnancy blood test tomorrow so just one day early). Not even a glimmer of a positive. I am devastated all over again. I’m always being told to go in to a cycle with a positive mindset, but how am I supposed to ever believe this will work after so many attempts.

I’ll keep taking the meds today until the test is confirmed tomorrow but that just feels like another pointless activity.

I’m sorry for so much negativity in this post but I feel so empty and angry and don’t know what to do with myself. X

[Jrss1]

Aww Crie, I’m so sorry to read this. Not to get your hopes up but the clear blue tests can take longer to show up. Did you try first response?

I’ve been exactly where you are many times. I know it feels so devastating right now but it will happen for you! You just have to be strong and say to yourself this is another hurdle but I can get over it. I also put a time limit on how long I was going to try for which made me focus.

I know that nothing anyone says helps really right now but try to be kind to yourself because you did everything right.

Sending you a big hug x

[Crie1983 in reply to Jrss1]

Thanks for your reply. It was the clear blue rapid detection test. Realised at midnight last night that the only test I had was months out of date so mad dash to the local 24 hour supermarket, which was limited in options.

I felt like I resigned myself to a negative yesterday, i started feeling stronger period type pains which is exactly how I felt with every other negative.

I’ve got 4 embryos left in storage and then that’ll be me done. I’m really grateful I have so many left but can’t help feeling this is never going to work. X

[Kclaxton89 in reply to Crie1983]

can I say I feel exactly what you are feeling I also had a transfer December 13th and every single test is stark white …. Tomorrow is beta but I know it’s already negative I even told my nurse and so I stopped taking meds today honestly this journey has been to much and I just don’t understand why science can’t be 100 percent

[Crie1983 in reply to Kclaxton89]

I’m so sorry for you. It just feels so cruel and unfair doesn’t it. I feel like with every negative it’s getting harder to believe this will ever happen for me. I’ll be thinking of you and send you lots of love and strength. Xx

[JA-fnuk Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Thinking of you Make sure have people around you for support

Take care of yourself

Janet -Partner

[Christianbaby]

Sorry to hear this. Hugs. xx

[Crie1983 in reply to Christianbaby]

Thank you. X

[Poop84]

hi I'm sorry to hear this. Did you get a hcg blood test? Maybe worth while?

Also did you get immune testing done or use steroids with this transfer?

[Crie1983 in reply to Poop84]

Hello and thanks for your reply. I had my bloods taken this morning so waiting for the call from the clinic to confirm the result.

I was prescribed steroids, 20mg a day for 4 days then reduced to 10mg a day.

My clinic insisted on using the same protocol for this round as my last one that failed in September, so would be interested to hear what they suggest going forwards. X

[Poop84 in reply to Crie1983]

I'm wondering if they said for you to intralipids or ivig with the steroids?

[Crie1983 in reply to Poop84]

They’ve never mentioned intralipids. Is it something that you have experience of? My medication for last 2 cycles has consisted of Progynova, utrogestan, lubion, Inhixa and Prednisolone. X

[Poop84 in reply to Crie1983]

This is very very much the same as my protocol but I have intralipids or ivig a month before and then just before transfer.

Maybe worth checking out with the clinic as pgs tested embryos are like goldust.

I hope you get some good news though xx

[Poop84]

keeping all crossed for you xxx

[Infragilis]

Very sorry to hear this. I know how you are feeling. This journey seems never ending but having embryos frozen is at least a positive and which you can look forward to transferring. Take your time to process this latest hurdle but don't give up xxx

[Crie1983 in reply to Infragilis]

Thanks so much for your reply. Xx

[Seren0119]

I understand and feel your pain - I miscarried two PGS embryos. I just couldn’t understand.

I did a strong immune protocol (25mg of steriods and IVs) and the third one worked.

My doctor (too medical director) said in his entire 35 year career he had only seen one case where four PGS embryos didn’t implant. She had her baby on the fifth.

What I am trying to say; is that your baby is waiting for you: it is unheard of that five PGS normal embryos don’t work.

Ask for a higher dose of steriods if not already on them and just keep going.

Sending love and strength ❤️

[Crie1983 in reply to Seren0119]

Thank you so much for your reply. I’m going to ask about increasing the steroid dose when I have my follow up. X