Think its all over...

[isitonlyadream]

Hi ladies

Today is 9dp5dt - yesterday I had the slightest bit of brown discharge (TMI sorry) but this morning there is brown and now a bit of brown / pink when I wipe although its not on the pad (again, sorry tmi)

I am going to call the unit when they open as blood test is booked in for 8:05 tomorrow morning but cannot help feeling that this is game over - try as I may to stay positive I am just gutted.

Another long day at work to face and just want to curl up and cry...

Holly x

[Hidden]

Aww sweetie it's def not over yet x a third of women get implantation bleeding x implanation bleeding is brown/pink x do call your clinic x just for reassurance x seen many women on here have bleeding and get a bfp xperhaps don't into work if you don't feel up to it x then again it might be a good distraction x only you know x thinking of you x and wishing you a beautiful bfp x be kind to yourself x

[isitonlyadream in reply to Hidden]

Hi Jess

Thank you for your kind words. I called the clinic they have said could be implantation could not, could be pessary irritation, could not. Still have to go for bloods in the morning.

Will keep working to keep my mind off of it but deep down I think i need to prepare for bad news tomorrow xx

[Hidden]

Hey

Don't be dishaeartened as I saw brown after wiping and I bled too still pregnant and 11 weeks it is scary but don't loose faith. It could be the baby settling in for the long haul xx

[isitonlyadream]

Hi tamtam,

Thank you I really hope you are right 🙏🏻

Holly x

[Flossy85]

Hi try not to worry, a lot of women get brown discharge and it's normal. Wishing you lots of luck for tomorrow xx 💗

[Cinderella5]

Im obviously not at the same stage as you but Ive read that lots of women have spotting. Ive got my fingers crossed for you for tomorrow! Sending you positive thoughts!x

[isitonlyadream]

Thank you Cinderella xx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK in reply to isitonlyadream]

Hi isitonlyadream. Another one here thinking of you for tomorrow. Sending gentle hugs. Diane

[isitonlyadream]

Hi Diane thank you. Think af is on her way now so already kind of know what tomorrow will say.

Holly.

[Hidden in reply to isitonlyadream]

Really hoping all good tomorrow hon .

[isitonlyadream]

Thank you all so much for your supportive messages but period has arrived so guessing tomorrow's blood will show negative.

I am staying positive and now treating this first time as a trial run to see how my body reacted.

I know we have one embryo on ice but I will speak to the nurses tomorrow to see if it's worth going through egg collection again or whether we try fet straight away.

My husband is due home soon so have to break the news to him but will put the above positive note to it when I tell him.

Thank you all again for your help and kind words xx

Holly x

[Tlove in reply to isitonlyadream]

So sorry to hear this, Holly. I guess see what they say tomorrow, I've heard that fet cycles can be very successful as your body has had a greater chance to heal after the ec. Hopefully it will be your time on the next cycle. x

[Cinderella5 in reply to isitonlyadream]

Sorry to hear that Holly! Take care! Xx

[isitonlyadream in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you Cinderella xx

[Hidden in reply to isitonlyadream]

Thinking of you xxx

[isitonlyadream in reply to Hidden]

HI Button

Thank you x

Good luck for today OTD today, we are finally here after officially the 2 longest weeks ever! xx

[Hidden in reply to isitonlyadream]

Hi yes finally here after what feels like forever, good luck today you never know ❤️ I have tested positive again this morning still abit worried as still keep getting the odd bit of brown but will see what the clinic say. Thanks for being there through all this you really have helped me loads I have everything crossed today that you get your much deserved BFP xxxxx

[isitonlyadream in reply to Hidden]

Hi Button

When I called yesterday morning (when it was still brown before the onslaught of red) they did say do not worry if it is just brown so hopefully they will tell you this today, plus you have tested again and it is still positive so keep the faith.

It truly has been the longest 2 weeks ever - at least I now know how hard it is hopefully when I have another one I will be much better prepared and will know what to be doing to keep my mind from going insane!

You have also helped me and its so lovely to be able to talk with others going through it - some days I really did think I was losing my mind but we got there in the end

Good luck today and let me know what they say

Holly xx

[isitonlyadream]

Thanks Tlove xx

I will be asking lots of questions tomorrow 😄

Holly x

[Tlove in reply to isitonlyadream]

DianeArnold might have a list of questions you could ask, maybe pm her.

[isitonlyadream]

Good idea I'll do that now 😄

[MommaBear16]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending lots of love x x x

[isitonlyadream]

Thanks momma bear x

Just not meant to be this time, we will not give up 😄

Holly x

[MommaBear16 in reply to isitonlyadream]

What an amazing attitude to have, I am sure you will get your happy ever after x x x

[isitonlyadream]

Thanks MommaBear, we both agreed to remain as positive as we could throughout the process as we are so lucky to have even got this far x

Holly x

[LHow81]

Thoughts are with you, glad to see you're not dwelling and already looking to the future xx

[Daisy-Mae]

Thinking of you Holly at this really difficult time. We had the same experience and it is heartbreaking, but like Tlove said, FET's can be very successful as your body is in a better condition and the first time is a little bit of a learning curve for the doctors too. Don't give up hope, we are all here for you xxx

[isitonlyadream in reply to Daisy-Mae]

Thank you daisy Mae xx

[Tara2016]

Sorry to hear this Holly. I am praying it all works out for you. As people have said it seems that bleeding can be quite normal. I've been going through the same thing. At 8dp5dt I started brown spotting and it has been red and brown and different consistencies. I am still spotting at 11dp5dt and feel it is slowly but surely getting heavier. I know it is so hard to remain positive. I keep telling myself it's over because you can't help but be reminded of worry every time you go toilet. I phoned the clinic to give my positive result today as it was otd but they have asked me to test again in another week. I literally cried today with frustration. However with all that being said, there is still some hope inside my heart and I just need to hang on until it is officially confirmed. You need to do the same! Xx

[isitonlyadream in reply to Tara2016]

Hi Tara

It's so scary when you see the blood and that's not fair that you have to wait another week but you have a BFP so please do not give up hope and stay positive ❤️

Thank you for your lovely words, it's a real period now so know it's just not worked this time but going to unit today to see where we go from here

Try not to worry too much xx

Holly x

[Tara2016 in reply to isitonlyadream]

So sorry to hear what your going through. Have you tested negative to confirm that it's a period? Have you been taking pessaries? I think it is my pessaries that are holding off my period and the clinic said they can do that, which is my mind is dragging it out unnecessarily. But we gotta do what the professionals advice I guess. Stay strong Holly!! xx

[isitonlyadream in reply to Tara2016]

Hi Tara

We are going for blood test at 8am this morning but I know it's over and that this is my period.

Yes still used the Pessaries last night as advised, I too thought that those kept it at bay but I've only been putting one 400mg in daily on an evening so now thinking maybe they didn't prescribe me enough?

You too stay strong and try not to worry x

Will see what they have to say today going forward

Holly x

[Hidden]

Sorry to hear your news honey. Be kind to yourself xxx

[isitonlyadream in reply to Hidden]

Sorry Tamtam - that was meant for button!!! (see up early and head is all over the place!)

Holly x

[isitonlyadream]

Thanks tamtam xx

Good luck today when you call the clinic 😄😄 xx