hope then crushed dreams. HCG 134 drop to 52 .

[Chantysal]

well if you followed my story you know that last week I wrote about what I thought was a failed IVF (which now I know it is)

so last week I thought I got my period and that was it but bleeding stopped and my nurse forced me to go in and have a blood test and our bloodwork came out 134 which my doctor said was normal. after thinking IV failed we were over the moon a feeling I will never forgot. we were pregnant . we saw 2 lines.

she had me come in today to see if the levels are up and unfortunately they are down to 52

none viable pregnancy. much worse then just having a negative / failed cycle.

I went to a fair yesterday and we walk quiet a bit and now I can't stop but blaming myself that maybe that is the issue.

what a horrible feeling I wished it would of just stayed a negative cycle and not having to go tru this

[AuroraXen]

You mustn't blame yourself Lovely. Walking around a fair won't have done this. I'm so sorry your joy has turned to sadness so quickly. It's so unfair. The emotional ups and downs are just so awful. Please don't feel like it's a result of anything you've done though! Sadly all to many embryos fail shortly after implementation 😢💔 Thinking of you on this awful day xx

[Chantysal in reply to AuroraXen]

thank you

[Savvy_teapot]

Kind thoughts to you. To have your hopes up and then dashed. Hope you have time to process it all!

[Kimbob82]

Sorry Chanty, it seems cruel, I know the feeling all too well. Be kind to yourself x

[Klndmr]

I'm so sorry you are going through this, it's never easy.... Do not blame yourself at all! Walking or anything like that wouldn't interfere with pregnancy. There was nothing you could do, and always remember you did and you are doing always your best just some things aren't up to us and the things we do. Be kind to yourself and take some time to grieve. Sending you millions hugs and lots of strength ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[MissSaoPaulo]

I'm so sorry hon, dashed hopes are so painful. Please don't blame yourself. Serena Williams was winning tennis tournaments in early pregnancy, a busy day walking wouldn't make a difference, you don't need to make things worse by torturing yourself with thoughts like that. Sending you big hugs, it's a rotten place to be, so be kind to yourself xxx

[Nenad]

I’m so sorry to hear this. I feel your pain especially since this happened to me last week. We can’t help but blame ourselves but I assure you that it’s nothing you did, any loss especially this early is most likely a problem with the embryo itself not developing any further. I’m now considering testing my embryos in my next round of IVF to hopefully eliminate this issue. All we can do is try and hope for the best! Lots of love xx

[Chantysal in reply to Nenad]

I did do the Put testing on the embryo and it came out very good we only had one left that we transferred. I need to test for NK cells I guess not sure what's going on . sorry your going tru this its too horrible

[Nenad in reply to Chantysal]

That sounds like a sensible idea. I’ll look into the NK testing too due to recurrent implantation failure. Hope you get some answers. It really is terrible after getting a glimmer of hope. Look after yourself xx

[Seyedeh]

Im so sorry !I know how you feel now!Its indescribable and unfair! i have been there at still recovering from the trauma.

Just be kind to yourself and body as that helps the most.

[XxMrsBXx]

I am so sorry to hear what your going through . Please don’t blame yourself though . I’m going through a chemical so understand your pain .

I wish I would have had a negative last week rather than a positive to be honest as I could have just dealt with it .

Sending you lots of love ❤️ xx

[Chantysal in reply to XxMrsBXx]

sending u hugs. yes that's what I feel too I just wish it would of stayed a negative and that's that

[FrancyItaly]

Oh no, I’m so sorry to hear that. It’s so sad and unfair. Please know it is not your fault, there is nothing you could have done for a different outcome, it was never meant to be viable, no matter what. Unfortunately chemical pregnancy are common, but I’m sure you will get there! ❤️ Xxx

[Cinderella5]

I'm so sorry to hear this, I went through the same and it's absolutely crushing. I've no words of wisdom really but just have a bloody good cry, hug each other loads, eat and drink what you want and the rest of the world can piss off right now. Huge hugs and love.xxx

[Chantysal in reply to Cinderella5]

its too awful, I wish it would of just been negative I done how it turned into a positive and another negative. cruel feeling

[Cinderella5 in reply to Chantysal]

I know, its so very cruel sweetheart! In time I came round to thinking that I got a step forward but that doesn't help now.xxx

[sj482]

Im so sorry you have experienced this, as many have said it is not your fault. Speak with your clinic and see what they advise. We found out about ours at the viability scan I only tested OTD and not leading up to scan!My clinic did say having a chemical shows you can get pregnant so in that way it is a small positive to cling on to - not that it makes it any easier or less scary if/when you try again. Big hugs

[Chantysal in reply to sj482]

thank you for the support and sorry about your results too.. such an emotional journey .how long after the chemical did you get your period? I just feel period cramps and no period so annoying

[sj482 in reply to Chantysal]

Mine had to be induced with norethisterone as it just would not come - I had the scan at beginning of Jan and no period until end of feb but think the chemical ended a long time before as pregnancy test was negative at scan time

[Ruby1980]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I had a chemical at the end of July and it is just heartbreaking. Mind yourself. X