Tested 3 days early

[zzko21]

So my OTD is Wednesday but tested yesterday and had a BFN…I was devastated…my second round and have nothing in freezer meaning I will have to go through all this again…I just feel depression creeping up on me cos this morning I just didn’t have the will to wake up….I think I tested early to gradually ease the pain because the last one was just too much for me….We had a poor round this time again and had 2dt…to be honest I wasn’t expecting much but deep down secretly hoping for a miracle….I hoped the pain would be more bearable this time but I keep crying…😥😥

How do I keep my head up….

[Kittykat198]

I’m sorry you are having a rough time. I keep my head by focusing that I like having a plan. If it’s focusing on seeing the consultant, prep for next round or focusing on a something else. If I made the decision to stop, I would need a what next: like the lady in a book I read who stopped treatment and the decided to swim the channel. Bit extreme but the point is having a something to swim towards. Be it France or another cycle.

I also find 6 weeks is the point where I don’t feel like I’m drowning.

Sending a massive hug because this process is crap x

[zzko21 in reply to Kittykat198]

Thank you for the good advice..

[Savvy_teapot]

It's understandable to feel disappointed and sad. It's devastating. Give it time to grieve 💜

[Lioness-icsi]

I am so sorry you are having to go through this - my heart goes out to you 💕. Allow yourself to go through the motions but be kind to yourself, you are doing everything right. It’s just that the journey is really hard. I have found strength from the women on here, they helped me prepare for my follow up appointment. I now have a protocol which l feel is tailored to me than the previous ones - will it give me the end result l want, l don’t know but will remain hopeful 🙏🏾. Here is a link to my post which might help healthunlocked.com/fertilit...

[zzko21]

Thank you so much ….this journey is so hard…