Any hope left? *updated*

[Riri88]

*Update* scan showing a sac in the uterus! No sign or cause seen for the pain and bleeding. Advice to rest up and re scan next week. We are not out yet!🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

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I think it is all over 😥 today week 5+2 and felt fine this morning, around noon picked up my bag and just felt horrific pain up my rectum, followed by stomach pain and cramps and back ache and can hardly sit due to the rectum pain. Exactly the same pain I felt when my left tube ruptured due to an ectopic previously. Managed to drive home and when I got there, I started bleeding a lot and bright red (sorry if tmi). I am devastated and soo scared it has managed to travel up my remaining right tube and now ruptured it. Waiting for a scan this afternoon at the clinic as the EPU is not picking up their phones…

I am clinging on to the teeny tiniest hope it could still be viable but realistically I think we should expect the worse right? The cramping is definitely ongoing and just heart broken already. Tears just keep coming and it just feels so unfair.

[Boltonk]

Oh my god, I’m so so sorry 😞 have you got someone with you?

[Riri88 in reply to Boltonk]

Yes, thankfully my husband was working from home so he is here and will drive me to the clinic in a bit… just devastated and lost all hope.

[Pinoccio in reply to Riri88]

So sorry to hear this! I have no advice I’m afraid but thinking of you 💜

[Boltonk in reply to Riri88]

So glad your husband is with you. Nothing to say to make this better, but my thoughts go out to you, and sending good karma that all ends up ok x

[Helto200]

Oh god!!! Nothing I,. Or anyone can say to make any of it okay. I don't even know you but I am gutted for you. I really hope everything is okay. So sorry this is happening, you are right, it is so unfair. Keeping everything crossed. Look after yourself. Xx

[Mar786]

So sorry to hear this. I am also 5weeks 3 days. A few days ago had bad cramps and the same feeling as you said along with gush of blood but my pregnancy test was a very strong positive did have slight pains and then went into EPU yesterday my experience was awful. First sonographer was saying to do abdominal scan and said she could see something i was soo excited and then she said she wants to do internal and then she just went quiet and was looking back and fourth like million times and could not find the sac. She was saying there was also fluid in my stomach so dont know if she coud even see properly. I was devestated. She then said could be ectopic but they cannot locate but due to my hcg levels being high must be something!!! So im left in limbo soo scared and devastated they said bleeding was due to a clot in my cervix. First they were saying they will keep me in but then they have told me to come back tomorrow. Dont know if it may have been to early to see anything so so scared. Been through soo much this cycle with those awful fragmin injections too ☹️

[Riri88 in reply to Mar786]

Ooh hun, so sorry to hear that! Seems like we are in similar boats. I have been there before with the EPU and scans not showing anything leading to multiple visits to the hospital to keep track until it still ruptured. It is a nightmare! Especially if you get horrible sonographers that don’t have people skills 🙄 hang in there hun and keep me posted! Maybe we can support each other through this

[Mar786 in reply to Riri88]

Oh my gosh that sounds so scary!! Thank you soo much for telling me. I was just not expecting them to say this to me at all. Also i had embryo glue done this time and was told it would reduce chance of ectopic.. just so hard being in limbo and then getting this far along. I really pray for a miracle for us both xxx

[Riri88 in reply to Mar786]

Hi hun, I thought I had replied to your message but can’t see it anywhere. Limbo is the worst. I hope they will see more tomorrow on the scan. Did you have a fresh cycle as many it could be ovaries leaking from over stimulation? I had my very first ectopic in the first lockdown of covid and literally everyone was covered in plastic, triage was done over the phone in the car park, you went in for the scan and straight back to the car for them to call you with the results which at that time was ‘pregnancy of unknown location’ which later turned into confirmed ectopic. I know it was still unknown times with covid but it was a horrible experience. I think they got better these days but if a scan is unclear the waiting is just horrible. Keep me posted how you get on tomorrow! Fingers crossed 🤞🏼

[Mar786 in reply to Riri88]

Awwwww thanks. I had a frozen cycle 2 5day blastocyst transferred.. just did not expect this outcome also used embryo glue which apparently reduces chances of ectopic!! Dont know what to say have no hope anymore but will see what they say tomorrow just need a yes or no not like maybe its this or maybe its that.. so hard dealing with these emotions. What do they do once they confirm ectopic? Thanks xx

[Riri88 in reply to Mar786]

I wish I could give you the answers you so desperately need. Let’s hope tomorrow you will get them. It would be strange for them to travel about if they were glued down… Maybe if you had 2 put back only once survived? It happens?

If it is ectopic it depends how it develops. My first one resolved itself so they monitored me every 2-3 days with scans and HCG bloodtests but it went down on its own. My second ectopic they monitored but kept growing and decided would do surgery but before this got scheduled it ruptured and ended up having emergency surgery. There is also an option to have an injection which should stop it and for your body to deal with it. Will save the tube if that is the case in most cases. I couldn’t do that as my liver value’s were off so not recommended as it is a heavy drug. All have pro’s and con’s so depending on the situation. But first things first, let’s hope it isn’t!

[Mar786 in reply to Riri88]

Awww thank you so so much for your advice - really appreciate it!! So doubtful hoping for a miracle but if not guess not meant to be xx

[Rella22]

I'm so deeply sorry

[Redsequin]

I'm so so sorry, lovely. This sounds unbearably stressful, and I hope you get some answers soon. Thinking of you, and keep us posted. xxxx

[sun-and-rain]

Physical pain in combination with emotional pain is the worst pain 😥💔💔💔 Hoping for you, but have no words that can ease the fear you're facing right now ❤

[JenRoy]

You poor thing. I can’t imagine the pain & stress you’re going through. Thinking of you & praying it’s ok xx

[ClaireB24]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this Ri. I hope your appointment at the EPU goes ok. It’s such a difficult thing to go through xxx

[Mar786]

Just read your message!! Its amazing that they have seen a sac!! U are definitely not out yet!!

[Riri88]

Thank you to everyone for the well wishes, all the positive thoughts might have helped as it seems positive news! If you read on, apologies for the ‘TMI’ parts if they are too graphic 🤢

They saw a sac in the uterus (hooray, no ectopic) and everything looked like she would expect at 5+2. No bleeding at all anywhere and they can’t explain where it came from. Pains are settling down with paracetamol. I can fart again as that was horrifically painful 🙈 and as luck has it I was very gassy/bloated today as well.

Almost feel like a fraud now as I was convinced it was over. But as my husband said I definitely were not a fraud as he witnessed me standing in the bathroom in tears with my leggings around my ankles and blood down my legs, over the floor, clothes and by the toilet as it literally came out so fast. It is settling down now it seems so hoping the worst is over! Next scan is in a week and hoping we can see a heartbeat.

Keeping everything crossed it will proceed. And I will never speak any doubts again about our little bean that was named ‘the worst embryo out of the 3’ but it is hanging in there and showing to be a true warrior already. ❤️ Keep going little bean!

[Helto200 in reply to Riri88]

Thats great news. Such a horrific experience for you and your hubby. What a traumatic time. Glad it is settling down and things are looking positive..xx

[Riri88 in reply to Helto200]

Thank you! Honestly I have gone from so low to quite hopeful again. Just baffles me how you can have that much sudden bleeding and high pains for no apparent reason and the fact it came on so sudden. But let’s hope the worst is over!

[Helto200 in reply to Riri88]

The same thing happened to my sister in law to be fair.. also an ivf pregnancy. She went on to have a healthy baby girl, but all the way through she didn't believe her pregnancy was real. She had an immense amount of bleeding and clots early on. You have been on a hell of a roller coaster and I wish you all the best. Xx

[Riri88 in reply to Helto200]

Thank you and it helps to hear success stories! ❤️

[KbOT in reply to Riri88]

Hoping little one sticks around for you, seems the ones that are labelled the worst stick around, my LO is 7months now. You cant help but doubt yourself and the pregnancy throughout. Its a hard mental game IVF and only those who have been through it truly understand! 💙

[JenRoy]

That’s such a relief. Brilliant. Rest up well xx

[Redsequin]

What a relief!!! xxxx

[AN791]

I’m so pleased for you wishing you all the best 🥰💕

[BettyBe]

Great news baby is still there! Fantastic! Get lots of rest and wishing you all the best xx

[Positivechangeplease]

Phew! 🤞for your scan next week and in the meantime definitely rest up

[Jana483]

Congratulations!!!! I am so happy for you!!!

[Riri88]

Thank you all for the lovely messages! Currently at home off sick from work (being a physio does not lend itself to ‘take things easy’) and acute bleeding seems to have stopped so that is great!

Now trying to get a hold of the clinic to discuss if I should stop my baby aspirin as now I am wondering if this might have caused the bleeding. As far as I know I don’t have blood clotting issue’s and the specialist was like ‘I don’t advice it yet also not against it’ so I decided to take it from transfer and now in doubt if that was a good thing or a bad thing. And the worry, should I stop due to the bleeding but could stopping cause issue’s as it might still help with good blood flow to the sac? Difficult one…

But overall feeling much better!

[Redsequin in reply to Riri88]

So glad you're resting now and wishing you an easier ride from now on! xxx