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Hi all, I am today at 15dp5dt and feeling so sad. I have not had any symptoms, but suddenly for some reason I am convinced I am not pregnant anymore. It is very strange, up to now, every day after BFP on Monday (hCG of 105), I kept saying each day where I haven’t got my periods is a good thing. I have resisted testing at home, so as to not overanalyse.

this evening I however feel completely down and have lost hope. Oh how I wish it was not this endless wait. I am not sure whether best to test so that I actually know what direction things might be going, or just plod along since there is not much I can do. Life is really unfair it feels, all we have to go through. Sending hugs and thoughts to all in this boat

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Running79

A lot of ladies don’t really get any symptoms, I only had mild to moderate cramps, headaches and sore boobs.

Everything disappeared apart from the sore boobs - I’m now 12 weeks + 5

So I know it’s easy to say don’t worry, you’ve had a BFP - just work towards your viability scan

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Jenny246 in reply to Running79

Thanks Running79 for your good advice. It is indeed working towards the viability scan, every day longer is a step in the right direction. Thanks for the reminder, it is normally what I say to myself, but had a big wobble today. I am really happy for you that you are now at 12+5 after such a long journey. Thank you for taking the time to also share some support here. I wish you all the best for the next trimesters

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Running79 in reply to Jenny246

Thanks and you

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Mellyboo111

Sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. Your doctor did not test you two days after to make sure your numbers are increasing? Honestly i would home test just to make sure the lines are there and give hope. Good luck

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Jenny246 in reply to Mellyboo111

Hi Mellyboo, thanks for your wishes and advice. Yes I think I will do hometest tomorrow morning. I was unfortunately not able to test two days after with beta as I live too far away from the clinic. Now I feel silly I didn’t just make an effort, but I thought at the time, that most important was making sure I could just take it easy and rest at home, than the long drive back and forth to the clinic. Wishing you all the best too, I saw that you had quite a scare, but hoping you have a smooth pregnancy from here x

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D38813

I’m right with you. I’m 17 days past and have no symptoms except for a little wind. I had some sickness a week or so ago but that’s completely wained. Today has been my second episode of ‘a bleed’ I tested today with the clear blue weeks indicator to put my mind at rest but I’m still fretting and I still feel like this isn’t real. I’ve done two clear blue tests since my bloods last week and I have another stash of three in the cupboard to take me me up to the day of the scan. I’ve also bought in all of my favourite foods so I can spoil myself a little. X

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Jenny246 in reply to D38813

Thank you for your message D38813. I saw from earlier posts that you might be pregnant with multiples, and so I understand you must really be fretting. I am really crossing my fingers for you. On the “logical” part of my brain, I know that yes it really can be normal not to have symptoms ... but that part of my brain ain’t really switched on today. Like you I have also got my favourite foods to spoil myself. Wishing you the very best. X

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Jenny246

Thanks for replying. It is such tough journeys we are on, I normally am pretty good at just taking things day by day, and staying positive as best I can. I hope that what I am feeling is down to me being scared to hope too much that it will happen, so as to not be too disappointed. Previously I was just completely floored by a CP. In this cycle, up to now the only symptom I have really had is being a little more tired that normal, but today I didn’t really feel that tiredness. Oh how I wish we could just fast forward to the second trimester

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Weareback2

I know it is hard and IVF takes the excitnent away from pregnancy. I had absolutley no symptons to 14 weeks and barley had a bump until 23 weeks so i totally know jow you feel. If it happened naturally you may not even know you were preggers! All the best of luck xx

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Belangalo

I understand exactly what you are talking about...it's fear pure and simple. Fear of getting your hopes up only to have them dashed if things don't work out. Big hugs! I'm living that fear right now too. IVF and infertility does a number on us! We KNOW how hard it is to fall pregnant, we're so used to disappointment, things going wrong and getting a raw deal. And we also know the stats on miscarriage and how easily that BFP can be taken away. For me, it has made the first trimester a nightmare of agonising worry from one scan to the next! 😅 The only advice I have is to remember that most of what is happening inside you right now is completely out of your hands. I found relief in putting my phone down and not googling. I also just found heaps of shows to binge watch and hubby has bought my fave foods. Being kind to ourselves is hard when that little light inside of us is all we think about! 😅 But do find things that make you feel better and do them. There is no wrong or right way to get through this time. Best wishes and so much baby dust! Xx

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Jojobells

I feel exactly the same, I’m 13dp5dt. What makes it worse is when I had a MMC I had a day when I was really depressed and down which is unlike me, and later realised that was about the time the embryo stopped growing.

Keep positive and tell yourself it’s fine, envisage the baby growing and being fine. This sounds crazy but I talk to the embryo as well, at this point I have nothing to lose from making every effort. Best of luck, I’m praying for healthy growth for your baby 🙂

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MelissaS6

Hi I am 20dpo5dt and feel very similar. I can’t stop worrying that something will go wrong. My next scan is June 3rd which feels ages away. The toughest I think is that I keep doubting myself that I will do something wrong to jeopardize the pregnancy. I am trying to continue on with daily life but it’s a constant factor. I think we just need to take it day by day. Reading the stories and communicating with the ladies on here is very helpful I think. Wishing you the best ❤️

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lawrins

Generally, a lot of ladies don't have symptoms regarding this. I’m really sorry to hear about you. I had my early scan yesterday. I am 5dpt 5dt and I tested with a BFN too. I also do not feel any symptoms. I searched a lot and came to know that many people have produced positive results later so we have to be strong. We can do this. I've read on day 5, the implantation has only completed. After that HCG only gets released into the blood day 5 and day 6 onwards. Maybe we are late bloomers 😊 We got this Hun. Stay strong with me xx

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