Looking for signs of hope!

[HL86]

Hi there, I'm currently 10 days into the 2 week wait, Its my 2nd cycle of ivf using donor eggs, I'm fighting with myself not to test until the date I was given by clinic, as my first cycle I tested early and never got the happy ending, I know each cycle is different, first time round I had a morula 4 day transfer, this time it was a high graded expanded blastocyst 5 day transfer, some days i can't explain my body feels strange and i think oh i might be pregnant but then other days i feel totally normal, I know the changing "symptoms" day by day can be due pregnancy or also due to the medication, I currently take progynova 2mg 3 times a day and utrogestan vaginal capsules 200mgx2 three times a day. I guess after all this waffling on, what I'm looking for is to see if anyone else has had similar treatment/experience as me and what their outcome was. Probably just looking for signs of hope.

[Birdbaby]

Hi HL86

The 2WW is a difficult time and you are doing so well to not test. I know a lot of people do test earlier but if you do test and it’s positive you’ll end up continuing to test each day to make sure it’s real and if you get a negative then you’ll drive yourself insane hoping it will change.

I’m only on day 4 of my wait but determined to try and hold off testing. I’m on similar meds to you except I only take 1 pessary, 3 times a day. I’ve not had any symptoms and it’s hard not to compare this transfer to my previous one but just need to try and be patient and wait until my blood test. Reading posts on the forum many have no symptoms and get a positive result so I would try not to worry.

[HL86 in reply to Birdbaby]

Thank you, I really needed to hear that, I wish you all the best of luck with the rest of your wait, and really hope you get the best result! X

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You have been here before so maybe don't need any advice, but as an old timer and a serial early tester I would just say it really doesn't help. If you get a negative you think you are out and are in the depths of despair but then start wondering if its too early/late implanter etc etc and then want to test more and more to see if it becomes a positive. If you get a positive you celebrate then panic that it might be a chemical and having had several chemicals and several miscarriages I know you then keep testing to see if its getting darker/lighter and stress about that

A really amazing girl on here who I used to chat with loads got her BFP as I got my last OE chemical. She didnt test early and just said she liked to stay in the bubble of imagining she was pregnant and enjoying it until she was proven wrong. I tested and tested and got more and more stressed and as I say it ended up being a chemical, I think I had a week of testing stress. She didnt test once and even tasted AFTER test day I think because she had something on that day... and got her BFP - without any of that worry and stress. I often wonder if its because she was calm it worked

She probably knows who she is if she is reading this and I want to say masses of luck for baby he/she must be due very soon.

Good luck! xx