Abnormal fertilization

[Joanneka]

Hello all

Having a very emotional, up and down morning and hoped some of you might be able to help?

I had egg collection yesterday- I have low AMH and had only 2 decent sized follicles. I'd been warned that this could be the end of the line in terms of my eggs and was prepared for the worst. So I was thrilled to be told that I had 3 eggs.

This morning I received a call from the clinic to say that 2 of the eggs were not mature and one has shown some signs of fertilization- but not in the 'way they would like to see'. (Does anyone else hate it when they talk in baby talk rather than facts?) I really struggled to understand what is going on and whether this means the cycle has failed.

So eventually I managed to speak to the Embryologist who said that they are going to watch how the egg develops over the next few days. My egg is has a single pronucleate and normal fertilization (that they would like to see) would show double pronucleate. She said that sometimes these go on to grow into embryos so it is a case of watching and waiting... The icing on the cake was that I need to manage my expectation as my egg quality is poor.

This is so hard to hear. The IVF rollercoaster is a really difficult. I lost a pregnancy before Christmas- and there was the same kind of 'watch and wait', 'we don't know what's happening' kind of narrative then.

I feel like I had mentally prepared myself for bad news before egg collection, then on retrieving 3 eggs I was full of hope again. Now I'm back to devastated, but I feel like it's blind sided me this time. And because of all the 'watch and wait', I feel like I can't even be sad yet.

Has anyone got any words of wisdom to share?

Thanks

Jo

[pelvicpain123]

I dont have any words of wisdom but I am messaging to wish you luck ♡. I hope it all works out well xx