Some might recognise me. Sensitive post warning ⚠️ contains BFP and bits others may find upsetting.

Hi.

Background for those who don't know me!

- i was TTC for 7 years it took nearly 6 years to diagnose my endometriosis. We had a chemical pregnancy after my first lap and conceived our daughter Francesca after my 3rd lap with an endo specialist that was our turning point.

Last July we conceived our second daughter Amelia sadly she had no heartbeat at our 20 weeks scan we had her in November the most heartbreaking and unexpected loss as she looked so viable. No obvious cause of death from post mortem but nothing indicated it could happen again so best news really in a dreadful situation.

We tried to conceive again after my period and we got a positive test I am due 3rd October. I am feeling hopeful. with an open mind as it is early days. I feel very blessed to be given another chance.

These stories of late loss are fortunately very rare I don't want to scare anyone we were just very unlucky.

I want to give hope to those still fighting that awful battle I never thought I would have a baby with my hubby. It's a tough journey but one that is worth fighting for ❤️

[Babywaiting]

Sorry for your loss. Congrats on your bfp rainbow. Really hope all goes well for you. I am currently on the 2ww. X

[Hidden in reply to Babywaiting]

Aww thank you. Good luck with 2WW hope it's a BFP Xx

[hifer]

So sorry for your loss. Just so heartbreaking for you. Really keeping everything crossed for this pregnancy and a very healthy baby for you both 😘xx

[Hidden in reply to hifer]

Thank you so much. Hope the 2WW is dragging too much and wishing you every success with it Xx

[try2020]

Sorry to hear about your loss and fingers crossed for this pregnancy 🧡 crazy that it took so long for you to get an endo diagnosis, can I ask what helped get it in the end?

[Hidden in reply to try2020]

Thank you. I had a bad reaction to clomid and brought my endo symptoms so much so the fertility dr offered a choice; private IVF (I declined) a laparoscopic surgery to check tubes and possible endo or keep trying. I chose surgery the fertility dr thought it was bowel but decided to rule out anything gynae so I could go forward for bowel investigations. Turned out it was endo and I had it on my pouch of Douglas? uterus ligaments making my lining uneven so not a good environment for an embryo to implant ( which was the fertility issue) everything about us was normal on paper we looked like we could conceive but in reality we couldn't until my endo was diagnosed and treated. Unfortunately the only way to diagnose endo is via laparoscopic surgery which causes women to experience a delayed diagnosis. It's not part of standard fertility investigations. My endo nurse says there is a blood test medics are working on to reduce delayed diagnosis but won't be in for some time yet, sadly women's issues aren't taken seriously by doctors many times I was told "it's part of being a women" I hope this old fashioned attitude changes. I would say if you have a gut feeling something isn't right push for answers I knew my periods and symptoms weren't normal and I was right Xx

[try2020 in reply to Hidden]

Hi Jess, you are so resilient to have endured all of that 🧡 Definitely agree that gut instinct is so important and not to be fobbed off, but that blood test would be amazing because it is just awful that surgery is required for diagnosis, thanks for explaining and all the best!

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Awwwwwww Jess. Iv been thinking how you are lovely. So pleased to hear of your bfp really hope you have a smooth pregnancy i know it'll be hard anxious wise, your determination and the way you've handled your devastating loss of Amelia is nothing short of amazing. Sending you a huge hug and kiss 💗😘

[Hidden in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you, I think having Francesca has helped me to keep going. I've also had amazing support from medics the care from losing Amelia to now has been outstanding. I will be now high risk so waiting on my consultant to contact me in due course I did put in place weekly heartbeat checks until my 20 week scan to put my mind at ease. Right now it's one day at a time and I'm thinking positive until I have a reason not if the worst happens I'll try again. Amelia will always be our second daughter 💞 ☝🏻 For a rainbow baby 👶 how are you? Hope your pregnancy is going well? Xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Hidden]

Yes definitely children keep us strong we have to be for them, you are very strong and an inspiration!! I'm glad you've had such a high level of support from the medics that really does help. Also great you have that reassurance of the weekly heartbeat checks. Bless you've done so much. Of course Amelia will be with you all the way 💗 I don't know why but baby and us are not coming up on my feed i never even seen your post on there till now! 🤨 seems I've missed a lot on there.So glad you've got the right support lovely really pleased for you. Hope you have a smooth sailing pregnancy my love! So far so good lovely thank you for asking. Sending you a huge hug and 😘💗

[Lots8788]

So nice to see you're back Jess and congratulations on your recent positive. Sending you lots of love and hugs and hope you're doing ok. Lots of love xx

[Hidden in reply to Lots8788]

Thank you I'm taking one day a time trying to be hopeful ☝🏻 I'm so sorry to hear of your journey I hope you can get some answers and it brings you closer to having a baby Xx

[Hidden]

Im so sorry for your loss and happy for your goodnews. Thanks for sharing. Very kind and selfless x x x

[Rain415]

Thank your for sharing this. I'm so sorry for your loss and wishing you all the best with your current pregancy. X