8dp5dt

[Montgomery2]

Spent the evening cramping on my left side, the anxiety of testing on Monday is too much. I know cramping can be a positive sign, but I'm so nervous. Can't face another negative test its heartbreaking everytime. 😩😩 I've got no desire to test I'd rather wait 8months and see if a baby pops out 👀

[Cinderella5]

Oh I know what you mean!! Its almost better not to know isnt it?! You're doing really well, it's not easy going again and again so soon!! In rooting for you lovely!!🙏🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻xxx

[Millbanks]

It’s so hard isn’t it. I have developed a massive phobia of pregnancy tests over the last couple of years. I try to remember that I can’t do anything about it now, so a bit of calming meditation and a gentle walk helps. Make a plan of what you will do if it hasn’t worked, drink some nice wine, eat some stinky cheese and have a weekend away... for me I find the hardest thing is to NOT think about a positive outcome, my brain is already picking out the nursery decorations and planning how I’ll tell my loved ones, but when I start going down that route I imagine a massive stop sign smacking me in the face. That helps me stop overthinking it. Wishing you all the luck xxx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Millbanks]

I just tested on a whim because my cramps started again. BFN 🙄 it's not my first pee so il check tomorrow and Sunday. After last night I had the feeling it was all over x

[Millbanks in reply to Montgomery2]

It is only day 8 though - there’s still time. I know exactly how you feel though lovely, there’s no real way to make it any better, just know there are a lot of people here supporting you. Sending love xx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Millbanks]

Yeah I know, just spontaneously got the courage knowing it's too early 🙄 x

[Millbanks in reply to Montgomery2]

That’s exactly what happened to me on day 8! It cane out if nowhere. Next time I’m going to test daily to keep my expectations in check. I can’t bear the waiting xx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Millbanks]

I have 2 embryos left both are 3ab graded at freeze. I'm going to ask for them both to be transferred next month if nothing changes then after Xmas of they don't work do a whole new batch. 🙄 Just got a feeling Ive got a bad batch after so many not implanting. Xx

[Millbanks in reply to Montgomery2]

Could well be. It’s such a minefield xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Montgomery2]

Oh bugger!! I'm sorry lovely.xx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Cinderella5]

It's alright I kind of knew last night with the deep cramps. Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Montgomery2]

What progesterone are you on this time? I genuinely believe being on a higher amount helped us along with the ERA.xx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Cinderella5]

2xlubion x

[Montgomery2 in reply to Montgomery2]

From speaking to you my lubion is lower and I didn't have vitamins or steroids apparently because I didnt need them.

[Cinderella5 in reply to Montgomery2]

That's a fairly decent amount I guess. I'm also on 2 cyclogest 400mg plus the 2 lubion a day.xx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Cinderella5]

The things that's so annoying is every test I've had is 'normal' the husbands DNA fragmentation for his sperm is 'normal' so although our eggs look good visually it might be I've got dodgy DNA 🤔 who knows. Like I've said il have the last 2 transferred I know I'm only 28 but I've had 4 failures so they can't use the 'risk is too high' excuse can they?

[Hidden in reply to Montgomery2]

I know it’s easy to say but don’t beat yourself up - it isn’t necessarily that anything is wrong it’s genuinely sometimes just shit luck. We are unexplained too and I always just blame my crap eggs but I know so many people who have been through round after round and got there eventually. The fact you get some to freeze is a great sign and little consolation I know but it’s not necessarily that there’s something wrong so don’t blame yourself/your eggs xx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Hidden]

I know. Just that searching for a reason is the thing that beats me up. I'm such a logical person.. I understand most things to do with IVF so I find it had when we have something positive to cling onto then I still get a negative result. Also the clinics attitude changes towards you when you are a regular face. They say 'oh you've done this before haven't you, know the drill' 🙄 almost bordering on unprofessional. X

[Cinderella5 in reply to Montgomery2]

I agree with Hidden , there's a lot of luck involved here too so dont think its necessarily DNA and you've only just recently adjusted things to suit your ERA. The fact you are younger and you're getting good quality embryos that are also good enough to freeze does sound like it's a numbers game.....also another shitty factor in this lottery!! If they let you go for 2 then I would too, although I guess you need to be prepared for twins in that scenario!xxx

[Montgomery2 in reply to Cinderella5]

Totally happy to do that 😊 so pleased for you too! Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Montgomery2]

Thank you!🥰Still doesnt feel real but so excited at the same time....trying to not to get our hopes up but I think that ship has sailed now!😂 Let's face it, if I can get a poaitive with my shit history then anything is possible!! Hugs, I know its shit but you have great determination girlie!!😘xxx

[Hidden]

Really hope you find something to keep your mind busy this weekend and you get good news on Monday xx

[KriSho]

My OTD is also Monday. I really don't want to test as I know it is negative. I have had a bleed today 😞😭. Clinic said to wait till Monday 🤦🏽‍♀️

[Montgomery2 in reply to KriSho]

Sorry to hear this take some time for yourself ❤️

[MD123]

Hoping the result changes for you on Monday with your first urine! 🤞🙏 xx