My periods have always been bang on time- every 26- 28 days and for 4 days for as long as I can remember.
Then in February I got diagnosed with PCOS and got put on the supplement infolic by the consultant to 'improve the symptoms'.
Since then I have had last months period that was 6 days long and the heaviest and most paintful I've ever had, and now this month- no period at all.
I am 4 days late today, and for the last 3 days I have been fully convinced I was pregnant.
So convinced that I woke up this morning at 4.30 🤦🏼♀️ and took a test, which was a big fat negative. Crawled back into bed and didn't say anything to the OH. He went off to work at 7am and I thought I'd do a second one just in case- another big fat negative.
I had been so sure, that yesterday I ordered a little onesie saying 'Hello daddy' on, and I was going to surpirse him when ge got home today 😔💔 so bloody stupid I know!
I spent all day yesterday wrapping presents for my brothers new baby- to send to Paris, and we have a tiny newborn baby next door that cries all day, and I feel like my heart is going to shrivel up and die.
My hair has been falling out for the last year, I'm over weight by a stone for IVF and can't shift it so we haven't even been put on the waiting list yet!, and all I want in the world is to be a mum. I feel like my body is playing bloody tricks on me.
Every month for the last 2 years I have been telling myself DO NOT get your hopes up- it's so unlikely it's going to happen naturally, and then just before I'm due on I always have a tiny little ray of hope that this month may be the month.
And it never is.
I feel so fed up with it all 😔 I have sat and cried hysterically for about 2 hours, and am just starting to calm down.
So sorry for the really long pitty party post, I am just desperate to talk to people that understand.
Stay safe everyone xx