So close and now all cancelled 😩

[LeeCee15]

Hello 👋

Firstly I know there will be loads of others in the exact position I’m in and sorry all this really is an awful time 😢

I was literally a couple of weeks away from my first FET and now it’s all been cancelled and I can’t help but feel really sad and frustrated about it. I had my injection to down reg last week and even after checking in with the clinic and being told in cycle treatments will continue I’ve been told today it won’t be and I need to wait now, who knows how long for 😞

I had an open myomectomy in December to remove fibroids and now I’m just scared they’ll have come back before I can even start again... feeling sorry for myself at the moment and I know there’s worse going on in the world (so much worse) but it just doesn’t feel very fair today 😢 Xx

[Shelleybean]

Really sorry to hear this. You’ve got every right to feel upset, cheated and angry, so please don’t apologise for that. I suppose the positive of having to wait is that your baby is safely on ice and will be brought into a hopefully more certain world.

For now, you can take the opportunity to spoil yourself rotten 💕💕 xx

[LeeCee15 in reply to Shelleybean]

Thank you 🙂 it’s hard staying positive but I know it’s probably for the best right now Xx

[LizzieBW]

Hi LeeCee15

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. To be frank, it's absolutely sh*t. The worst news for any woman going through infertility treatment. Myself personally, I was 1 period/cycle away from starting IVF after over 4 years of infertility so the thought that you have been on medication and preparing for your FET, for it to be cancelled must be devastating. Please at the very least know that you're not alone in your frustration and pain! Just to say, I have an advanced stage of endometriosis and this condition is ever-growing so I have the exact same fear that, now 9 months after surgery I fear tissue may grow back that will impact the success of pregnancy. I can very much relate to your post. Hope you're okay 🧡 xx

[LeeCee15 in reply to LizzieBW]

Hey 👋

I started IVF last October and it just feels like one thing after another delaying it ☹️ this was the closest I got to my transfer though.

Yep your situation sounds similar to mine ❤️ it’s so frustrating isn’t it and just makes it worse with the not knowing when we’re actually going to be able to do anything. I’m ok though thanks 🙂 it feels better getting it out sometimes especially to people who understand.

I hope it all works out for us all Xx

[shia001]

That’s sad but just think it was not a right time maybe for your baby and baby will come at the best time, I live in NZ and just a week ago my clinic sent email too that clinic is closed but the cycles which are already started will continue and embryo will be transferred at the right time although mine is transferred 2 weeks ago , I think your clinic should transfer your embie at right time too and should not cancelled

[LeeCee15 in reply to shia001]

Hi

I thought they would carry on but I guess they’re being advised to stop because nobody knows what’s going on in the world at the moment, I am disappointed though ☹️.

I hope everything is going well for you Xx

[shia001 in reply to LeeCee15]

I hope so but this all is unpredictable and we don’t know when something wrong happen and feeling v weak

[LeeCee15 in reply to shia001]

Oh no, is everything ok?? Try to keep calm and relaxed and look after yourself Xx

[shia001 in reply to LeeCee15]

Everything is ok with the blessing of God almighty but I am scared from this whole ivf thing

[Leesara]

Oh I am sorry. Even harder as you were told it was going ahead, then later told it’s cancelled. Be kind to yourself and use this time to work on you and explore hobbie xx

[LeeCee15 in reply to Leesara]

Hi

Yep I think that’s what’s made it worse as this was the closest I’ve ever been ☹️ and I did keep checking with the clinic, but nobody could’ve predicted how crazy the world was going to get I guess.

Good idea about a hobby thanks 😊 I do need something to take my mind off it all Xx

[ttcemmie]

That really sucks LeeCee. Especially to be excited about something (and pinning hopes on it) and then for it to be taken away. And then not even know when clinics will be back open and treatments running again. Just awful. Can understand about worrying about fibroids coming back too. This fertility stuff is very dependent on timing and time, and delays don't help. Somehow we need to work out how to deal with all the uncertainty and the fact this is all out of our hands. A lot of similarities between coronavirus and fertility treatment.... at least the general public have some understanding of what we're going through now!

[LeeCee15 in reply to ttcemmie]

Yep it’s exactly this, so frustrating and even though today I have been trying to keep positive I can’t help thinking what the next let down and hurdle will be ☹️ I did think this was the perfect time and even though you shouldn’t I was thinking about what could be!

I guess we just need to find a way to stop thinking about it, for now at least. What a mess this all is!! Xx

[ttcemmie in reply to LeeCee15]

I also thought this was the perfect time. Not meant to be. Very sadly. x

[LeeCee15 in reply to ttcemmie]

Awww ☹️🤞🏻 it’s our time very soon 🙂 take care Xx

[Rain415]

I'm really sorry to hear this, you should not feel guilty for feeling upset by this, it is an awful situation. I hope things improve soon and it does not take too long, take some time for yourself.

[LeeCee15 in reply to Rain415]

Thank you that’s really lovely of you to say 🙂 I’ll be ok, it was just really disappointing to hear I have to wait longer but hopefully a better time will come soon Xx

[Elfine]

So sorry you're going through this. You have all the right in the world to be upset. Hopefully, all this craziness won't last long. I'm sure you're a very strong person, especially after going through infertility. Hang on there, I guess they are trying to keep you safe. Big hug!

[LeeCee15 in reply to Elfine]

Thank you and how lovely of you to say 🙂 Yep I know it’s not really great timing right now it’s crazy what’s happening hopefully it won’t last too long. Xx

[Corchi]

I’m so sorry. I know how you feel. It’s such a frustrating feeling and so much anger as this virus. 😞

[LeeCee15 in reply to Corchi]

Ahh it really is frustrating ☹️ just really really bad timing. Hopefully it will all be over soon Xx

[Mary80]

Don't worry God will see you through. It's not how far but how well. It will all end in praise. Pls may I ask this, I wasn't allowed to operate on my fibroid as I was diagnosed of multiple fibroid. They advised against it becos it would leave scar tissue on the uterus. Depending on positions yours is anyways. Mine is the the muscle of the uterus. All the best.

[LeeCee15 in reply to Mary80]

Thank you, I had multiple fibroids as well, I didn’t have any removed from inside my uterus but there were multiple on the outside that were misdiagnosed at first as Adenomyosis but when I was having the operation they found them to be small fibroids that they removed as well. Scar tissue was mentioned but they used Adept inside the cavity to minimise the risk of adhesions/ scar tissue Xx