Hi Ladies
Sorry in advance for the rant but I feel i have to let it out.
I’ve just started downregulation for our next FET and was quite calm about it. But things are again hitting the roof !
My mom has been struggling with cancer for a few years now and it seems to have suddenly gotten worse very quickly 😓 they told us last month she would have a year left but she is not handling her last chimio well at all and I am no worried she might not even make it to Christmas (or worse) I might be wrong and I think we will no more next week but it’s hard.
Especially since we don’t live close to each other (am French and my parents live in the South of France). I was there for 2 weeks in July , my sister stayed a while as well.
I keep telling my dad I’m coming back but at the moment she prefers to stay on her own 
i might go anyway for a couple of days next week.
I thought of pushing the FET again (cancelled last Transfer in June / July ...) but we decided to go ahead not knowning how long will it take.
I ve been ok stress level wise until today... i was even quite positive !!! but now i m worried that s it s going to get worse in the coming weeks and that stress will affect the outcome of the FET. Seeing her so weak and knowing the outcome is terrible. (Pre periods is also not helping ...)
It might just be the chimio that is knocking her out and once thats done she’ll be less sick & will be able to have the last few months of her life without treatment or too much pain... we just dont know, hence we decided not to delay our FET... she also wanted us to go ahead with it.
Anyway, sorry for the rant and depressing Monday message.... after 3,5 of TTC numerous treatments, failures and bad news, i’m starting to loose my 🤬🤯😰
Sending much love to all xxx
Hey, I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through so much at the moment - no wonder you’re massively stressed!! Hopefully your mum will start feeling less sick once she’s done this round of chemo.
I’m not sure I can offer much advice apart from you should do what’s best for you. If you think you can get through your FET with everything going on, then it might give your whole family a boost. That said, the added stress isn’t something you need right now!
It’s such a tough decision for you to make. I’m sure whatever you decide to do will be the best thing though.
I’m sorry I’ve not been much use, but didn’t want to read and run!
Sending you all the love in the world 💕 I hope things start getting a bit easier for you soon xxxxxx
Thank you so much for your supporting words. I would love to be able to tell my mom it worked before she passes which makes me want to go ahead with it!!
So at the moment I m still going ahead... day 2 of Buserelin... meditation and pilates help as stress reliefs 😬
Wishing you luck for your FET !!!!🌈🌈🌈
Xxxxx
Ahhh I’m glad you’re going to press ahead with your FET! I’ll keep my fingers firmly crossed for a BFP 🤞🏼that would be such amazing news for you and your ma! 😊
I’m 3 weeks into buserelin with oestrogen patches now thrown into the mix - hoping for ET end of next week.
Sending you loads of luck, keep us all posted xxxxxx