torture during the 2ww

[Bubunoto]

Hi Ladies

I am so sorry for the constant moaning! I feel hopeless. My test date is tomorrow and i am super scared and not ready for the worst. I don't want to see the single line again. I have been seeing it for the last 2,5 years and i can't stand it! I was too scared too test during the 2 weeks which is not me! I am the most impatient person in the world, trust me. That's how messed up I am at the moment. Could't sleep last night, haven't been able to sleep properly in the last 2 weeks. All night last night I was feeling hot then normal, then hot again. My breast hasn't been painful for at least 4 days now- it's like i don't even have boobs- that's a sure a sign of a failure. My breast has always been extremely sensitive and painful especially after ovulation/ before my period. The only symptoms i'm having are cramps and constant headaches. There is a weird feeling around my belly button from time to time but that's about it.

I don't want to test. I am not ready. I know i will be crying for days and it will take time to recover. I hate this journey. I don't want to be part of it anymore

[DianeArnold]

Hi Bubunoto. Oh dear! It is an awful time - waiting, but hey, I'm proud of the fact that you haven't tested early and you have stuck to your official test date. I'm sure the others here will be propping you up as you wait. Just to say that I shall be thinking of you. Diane

[Bubunoto in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks a lot, Diane, you are always so nice and supportive to everyone! I am really scared to test. Am i crazy?

[DianeArnold in reply to Bubunoto]

Hi Bubunoto. Of course you're not! Hormones have a lot to answer for. Just try and keep busy if you can. Diane xx

[Bubunoto]

Thank you, Lauren! Good luck to you too!!!

[Dinah_lady]

Bubunoto,

Such a hard time... you have done so well not to test up to now, but I know the time has come and it must be scary.

I have never had a BFP and I am 40 so my thoughts are very much with you.

I know the feeling of not wanting to be part of the journey and just wanting to feel ‘normal’ (whatever that is) again.

You’ll get through this x x x

[Hidden]

Hi Bubunoto, the 2ww is horrendous, well done waiting till OTD. If it's any comfort to you, my breasts are usually sensitive like yours but weren't in most of my 2ww and I got a positive.

Symptoms or lack of doesn't mean much so be rest assured you have every chance of getting your positive result tomorrow. Wishing all the very best. We are all rooting for you. Xx

[Bubunoto]

Hi All, i don't know if i am paranoid but it feels like my period is starting. Today is my AF's date and its possible. I saw the smallest red dot while wiping (sorry) literally a few mm and i am feeling horrible- headache, cramps, not feeling well.

Maybe i should do a test? Do you know if its gonna show anything at 3-4pm in the afternoon? It's 11 days after 5 day embryo transfer.

Help!

[Leesara]

Oh it is so hard, I do feel for you. I will keep both hope and positivity for your test day x

[ttcemmie]

Oh my love. Sorry this is such a horrendous upsetting time. Nothing I can do, but wanted to let you know that I care and that I'm here for you xxxx

[Elle34Inz]

So sorry to hear this my lovely but you have done amazing for not testing early xx remember some people have symptoms and some don’t but what you are saying sounds positive xx you will know soon enough 🥰❤️🥰❤️ remember you are a warrior

[Snow345]

Hi Bubunoto,

Well done for getting this far, not long to go now. It's so hard and we tend to over analyze every single twinge, cramp or feeling during this 2ww and it drives us mad. Don't worry as there's nothing you can do now but stay strong. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you for tomorrow and praying it's good news xxx

[Bubunoto]

Thank you so much Ladies, you are awesome! If you don’t hear from me, its bad news and i might need some time to feel sorry for myself. Sleep tight tonight and sweet dreams to you all ❤️❤️🌺🌺

[Tryagain45]

Just wanted to wish you luck for tomorrow and am hoping for wonderful news for you... You've been so patient and I admire that. Big hugs❤️❤️❤️❤️

[Bubunoto]

Negative from me, heartbroken! I think i am done with ivf.