Heavy bleeding

[Purplewitch18]

Well bleeding so heavy theres no chance theres anything left. I think i must have lost it soon after implantation which is why i only picked up a trace of hcg. Time to have a break before we have to start all over again xx

[Telford1]

Sorry to hear that Purplewitch. It’s mentally and physically exhausting. Give yourself a huge pat on the back as you are doing your level best to make it work. Try to take a break from thinking about it. Some ‘you’ time so you have energy for the next one:). X

[Purplewitch18 in reply to Telford1]

Thanks hun, im ok and have accepted it horrible as it is xx

[RhinoCat]

🥺😫😞...... poor pet. At least it is clear now 😫😱😱😱

You’re prob right though, must have implanted for a bit. Prob frustrating to know that. You will be ok in time.

Be kind to yourself and let the cries out when they come.

Sending hugs of understanding 😘💐💐💐💖💖💖

[Purplewitch18 in reply to RhinoCat]

Thanks Rhino. My nurse said it must have implanted to get even the faintest of lines, but to bleed so soon after shows its not progressed. She still thinks the faint line could be the start of something, but this is now a heavy period so no matter how hopeful she is there is just no way its still in there. Im honestly ok though, ive done the whole meltdown thing already and come to terms with it not working even before i saw that really faint line as you know. Good news is it did implant, so its not all bad. How are you doing on your secnd cycle, your just starting stimms right?xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Purplewitch18]

Crater 😘😘😘😘💐💐💐💐 you are being so brave. Do you have to go back to the clinic or get bloods ?

I’ve down reg prostap in my system and got to wait until the 18th to get started on stimms . Just trying to get myself ‘lifted’ in my head and relax etc. Need to get back to drinking more water as I’ve had a sore head from yesterday . Wish I was a bloke 🤣

[Purplewitch18 in reply to RhinoCat]

Ha ha yes ive wished i was bloke doing this too! Yep get drinking that water. Peppermint oil on your temples is great for a sore head instead of having to take painkillers all the time. Its so hard to relax isnt it, im starting yoga soon to help with that and make me feel better.

All i have to do is retest to confirm its negative and ring my clinic. Then they will do a follow up and discuss next steps. Going to try again in june time after a few months break. Only worrying thing is ill be 41 in june but ill also be on the dhea and that needs time to do its thing xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Purplewitch18]

You’re doing the best you can . In June you will only be 3 months older than you are now, 🤷🏼‍♀️ so don’t get hung up on that. Plenty of success stories out there for that age. Good shout on the dhea. I haven’t tried that yet. Just coq10 and my multivitamin this time to see if there’s a difference. I’ll try dhea next time. Can’t get any delivered quickly . Hope you have a nice day planned? Wee lunch out?

[Purplewitch18 in reply to RhinoCat]

You may not need a next time Rhino! Well we are taking our daughter to the fair, food shopping where i will be buying lots of indulgence foods 😁, because i deserve it, and maybe cinema later, kids films though lol. Just have a nice family day xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Purplewitch18]

Sounds like a lovely day 🤩 enjoy that and your treats’

[Purplewitch18 in reply to RhinoCat]

Thankyou, and you make sure you do something to lift your spirits and take your mind off the horrible hormones too xx

[Keepingfaith85]

Sorry to hear that Purplewitch18, I hope you are doing okay today. It's horrible getting so close but please know that it will happen for you in the future. Have a nice break and spoil yourself xx

[Purplewitch18 in reply to Keepingfaith85]

Thankyou for your lovely comment keepingfaith. I do have faith somethings going to turn around for us xx

[ttcemmie]

Sorry lovely. This really sucks. You're doing really well. Sending you lots of love and hugs xxxx

[Purplewitch18 in reply to ttcemmie]

Thankyou hunny, well its horrible but theres nothing i can do about it. Just need to move on and keep myself busy xx

[Catlady12345]

Sorry! You’re so brave through and very inspiring. Have a lovely day with your family xx

[Purplewitch18 in reply to Catlady12345]

Aww thankyou Catlady, thats. Very kind thing to say xxx

[Bosa19]

I am so sorry and hope you're doing ok! Sending you lots of love xx

[Purplewitch18 in reply to Bosa19]

Thankyou Bosa, im ok, already planning for my next round xx

[Italy300618]

I'm so sorry it's not worked lovely, my heart goes out to you, 💗, definitely give yourself a little break it's so tough. Lots of love xx

[Purplewitch18 in reply to Italy300618]

Thankyou and yes i am going to. I did 2 rounds back to back its definately time for a break xx

[CLDxxx]

So sorry darling. Take care of yourself 💕

[KayCan]

Gutted for you purplewitch, if only everyone going through this could get a positive at the end, its bloody unfair. Go and get yourself some nice treats, you so deserve it. Until next time lovely 💕

[Hidden]

Gutted for you, it’s so unfair, treat yourself today you deserve some TLC xx

[Afrohair]

Hey sorry it didn’t work out but I know you are very strong minded and can plough through it you’ve inspired me so much to think positive and I know that’s what you will be doing it just means you will get better results next time each trial is a learning curve.enjoy the rest of your day xx

[Purplewitch18 in reply to Afrohair]

Thankyou hun that means a lot 😘. Well i truely believe im on this path for a reason, and learning more each day. I do believe we should all listen to our intuition, that little voice is there for a reason. I kept radomly seeing stories about embryo glue this round and something told me ok dont ignore this. Yes there is no firm evidence its worth the price, we asked about it and just settled with our dr saying everyone had a bit of that, but its not the actual embryo glue its just a similar concction in the petri dish. I wish id pushed for the real thing and maybe id have gotten further than implantation. Our embryo obviously tried to stick hence the trace of hcg, but just couldnt quite hold on. Next time whatever my dr says i will be having that because i still have this nagging voice in my head, i dont want a what if the next round.

Also going by my experience this cycle im almost certain ive implanted and lost straight away numerous times before. Ive had some extremely heavy random bleeds after pregancy symptoms a few times but not tested. This is something i need to get on top of, ill be testing every month from now on.

I believe ive done enough to get my eggs to a good enough quality to get this far, but i still have a bit of work to do. Im come a long way in the last year or so, and i know i can do this. Xx

[Hidden in reply to Purplewitch18]

You are so brave and so wise. If it’s any help we have tried a different embryo glue this time, it’s called embryogen. We were told it often helped with repeat MC or implantation failure. Was £450(!) but in ivf terms that feels like peanuts! xx

[Purplewitch18 in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou hun ill make a note of this. I know this is the 2nd either early mc or chemical, im not sure which but i suspect its the mc. Im almost certain ive had more, and need to do something about it now. Research is key, keep on reading up and learning as much as possible. I believe we can ALL have children one way or another. Xx

[Hidden]

So sorry, do take care of yourself

[FrancyItaly]

I’m so sorry to hear that. I send you a big hug 🤗 💕