I know I might seem ahead of myself but I’m trying to remain positive.
After finding out on Tuesday that we had 4 eggs fertilised, I’ve been incredibly busy at work and not had much time to think about it. As good as that is, I really don’t think that it’s a good thing that I’ve not been able to give Myself time to just process this all.
I was in Tesco the other night and didn’t know what supplements to get. I didn’t know if the conceive ones would be any use or the actual early Pregnacare ones? Do you think I should buy the conception ones or the pregnancy ones? I’m taking folic daily but just wanted to get something else.
I’ve not heard off the clinic but I’m expecting a call tomorrow. Fingers crossed and prayers for my 4 little chicks 🐣🐣🐣🐣. If we have some or even one that’s a good grade then transfer will be Saturday.
I have spoken to one of my bosses at work about time off after transfer. There doesn’t seem to be any issue or negative feeling about it. I just need to confirm what I am doing.
I think being back at work has made me realise that it’s not the kind of environment I will be able to cope with everyday until my OTD.
I am a teacher in a special school, to a very demanding, unpredictable and noisy bunch. As much as they are the best distraction, I just wouldn’t forgive myself if something were to happen or if I am there in body but not in spirit.
I have felt a bit of a zombie all week. I have struggled to concentrate at times but have liked having my mind occupied.
Once I’ve had my call tomorrow I will make my decision and inform them.
I said to one of my bosses the other day, that anyone that’s had sedation and an intrusive procedure wouldn’t be back in work a day later like nothing’s wrong yet infertility isn’t a illness so we are expected to just get up and get on. I then expressed how much I underestimated the mental strain and she agreed completely.
I have said I will work from home, even though she said nobody would judge me if I was at home doing nothing and that I’ve got to give my body the best possible chance.
I feel I need to put my career second for the first time ever and plan some lovely things to do next week.
We are all in this unfortunate journey- so why not enjoy the smallest of perks. X