Anyone else an emotional wreck??

[hifer]

So...have started my FET meds and have upped the dose quite a bit from last time round. Taking more Progynova daily and started with the patches from the start (last time we tried to add them half way through- didn’t work!!) Consequently I appear to be very emotional all the time! I’m assuming this is a mix of pumping myself full of hormones and the anxiety of actually going through it again and worrying about the possible failure. If I normally get hit with these emotions, I hit the gym. At the mo I’m going steady on that so finding it hard to find an outlet!

Anyway, sorry, I’m not really after advice. I’ve answered my own question. Maybe just to say that if anyone else is going through FET (or any transfer), I’m with you! We CAN get through this without going insane. I hope 😉. Xx

[Cinderella5]

Awww I completely sympathise! After so much struggles with your lining it's a nerve wracking time....is for me anyway! You're completely right, the mix of hormones and nerves is never a great combination but you're off to a better start this time, they've tweaked your protocol and hopefully its what makes the difference!!🤞🏻 Hang on in there.....we can be insane together!🤣😜🤯xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you. I like the 🤯 emoji. That just about sums me up 😂. Keep going trouper, we’ve got this! X

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Ha ha ha yes that emoji is exactly how I feel doing a cycle!! First scan for me next Thursday. Feel a bit more pressure this time as it's not a frozen transfer transfer and we will need to be really for donor but heard today all going to plan on that front so all good....well apart from paying out a heap of money today!🙄 Yes, we can do this....come on linings....bloody behave!!! When do you have a scan?xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Everything crossed for your scan on Thursday 🤞🤞. Oh god I know we have spent SOOO much money it’s insane! I totally get it. Excellent news re donor. My first 5 day scan is on Monday so I’m still very early days. Come on linings 👊💪. Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Good luck! Mine will be my day 9 of meds so will see how it goes.xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Good luck or today!xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you so much for thinking of me. It was 6.8mm today which is a good start. It was similar last time though and then got thinner so we’re just not getting excited just yet!! Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Well I would say that's a good start for sure! When is your next one?xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you 😊. It will either be Wed or Thursday. I will get instructions back later on today once my blood results are back. Will be thinking of you on Thursday x

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Thank you! Getting a bit nervous already when I think about it! Well good luck to you too, hopefully we both get some promising news.xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Good luck tomorrow 🤞🤞. Everything crossed xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Thank you! Are you tomorrow too or did you get pulled in today?xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Yep I’m tomorrow AM too! Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Oh good luck to you too!!🙏🏻🤞🏻 Let us know how you get on!xxx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

So my lining is on track....7.4mm which is great for me at this stage (day 9 of meds) and it has a nice triple line. I think I'll need to up my meds as usual but all positive so far. Hope you get some good news.xx

[Lavender96 in reply to Cinderella5]

Ahh that’s fab news 😊 so pleased for you. A great start and should continue to get thicker for you xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Lavender96]

Well fingers crossed! I sometimes stall at this level (well usually around 7) but so long as im over 7mm and the quality (triple line) is there then that is A ok with me! How are you doing?xx

[Lavender96 in reply to Cinderella5]

Aww I know that feeling of it stalling. I’m glad to hear being above 7mm with a triple line is good, it’s also what I’m aiming for🤞🏼When are you back in?

I have a scan on Saturday. Pretty nervous to be honest, I was only 5.8mm by day 14 😕 but trying to remain positive I’ve had a ‘growth spurt’ 🤞🏼xx

[hifer in reply to Lavender96]

Keeping everything crossed for sat for you 🤞🤞. The waiting is sooo tough! Xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Amaaazing!! That’s so so awesome. Come on!!! Sadly not such good news for me. It’s decreased again from the 5 day scan. I’m on 6.5 on day 8. I just have a gut feeling that we’re going in the wrong direction again 🙁. Prob another scan on sat so we’ll see. Feel so disappointed. I know it’s not over yet but I just feel from past experience that this may not be the cycle for us and that sat will show it’s gone down againXx

[hifer in reply to hifer]

So so happy for you though. Keeping everything crossed xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Oh bugger....noooooo! I really hope that's not the case! Im keeping my fingers crossed for you! Are you private?xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Yes I’m private x

[hifer in reply to hifer]

And thank you xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

If your cycle gets abandoned and I really hope it doesnt........the only thing I can maybe suggest and might be worth speaking with you clinic is and I hope this makes sense....I always felt my lining was better after being on meds back to back. Because I had a failed transfer in Nov and went onto have my ERA in Dec basically I was started straight back on meds after my withdrawal bleed from meds and got my best looking lining ever. After my ERA I was kept on estrogen then given progesterone to withdrawal bleed again. Had it not been xmas I would have then liked to have started my cycle as like I say I think having the aftermath of the meds helps me. So based on my theory my coordinator agreed that I could take 4mg of progynova daily then she asked me to use progesterone to withdraw bleed then ramp up to my usual prep of 8mg of progynova plus an HRT 100 patch every second day and I will step up my patches today to 2 every second day.xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Ahhh understood thank you. Will def bear that in mind. Really interesting. My clinic has been keen for a bleed in between starting a new cycle but will chat to the consultant about it. I think if this cycle is abandoned then we may well go for a natural cycle. I did a monitoring cycle in Nov and whilst it didn’t get super thick (6.9 or something) it did at least increase very gradually as we went along, rather than decrease, so our consultant was happy for us to give this a go next time if this cycle didn’t work. We’ll see. Thanks a lot for the advice xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

My clinic like a bleed to but they're induced by taking progesterone then stopping all meds and starting on day 3 again. That's good if your lining is not bad using natural cycle. Some people just dont respond to meds very well. Best of luck for Sat.xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

Sorry I meant after the induced bleed they like another one before starting again. One for discussion though for sure. When’s your next scan? X

[Cinderella5 in reply to hifer]

Ahhh Ok, Im with you! Im waiting to hear but provisionally for next Tuesday!xx

[hifer in reply to Cinderella5]

🤞🤞🤞xx

[RhinoCat in reply to hifer]

Hope the meds will kick in and your clinic will keep you right 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 💐💐💐💐💐💐

[Lavender96 in reply to hifer]

Oh no, mine has done this before so I know that feeling of dread as you go along. I’m really hoping it starts to thicken back out for you!! Got my fingers crossed for you on Saturday too🤞🏼xx

[RhinoCat in reply to Cinderella5]

Triple ✅✅✅ lining ✅ oh let it continue 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐 hugs and positive thoughts your way 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[Cinderella5 in reply to RhinoCat]

Thanks Rhinocat!xx

[RhinoCat in reply to hifer]

Nearly at the 7mm then and hopefully with the extra boost patches it will continue to thicken 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Tiny steps in the right direction 🤩👌🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻😘💐💐💐💐

[hifer in reply to RhinoCat]

Thank you. Keeping everything 🤞 xx

[CLDxxx in reply to hifer]

Ah that’s a very good start! I was nowhere near that by my 2nd scan. Hope it carries on thickening up for you xx

[hifer in reply to CLDxxx]

Thank you xx

[Leesara]

Bless you. Anxieties and overwhelming emotional is normal. Try your best to stay in the moment. Sending hope and positivity your way

[hifer in reply to Leesara]

Thank you so much x

[RhinoCat]

Your post made me chuckle ☺️ Glad to hear that others feel the same. So hard to know if your emotional because of meds or process indeed 🤣 I’d say you’re right , it’s prob a mix of it all plus a few tears for the torture of having to put ourselves through this head wreck of a situation whilst trying to stay calm and positive 🙃 it’s all a bit yuck but all the while hoping for the miracle!

Just breathe and know we are all with ya!

I’m on meds for FET too at the mo. Day 10 scan for me tomo/Monday .

I think also the ‘not knowing’ what’s going on with the oul lining until a scan is hard too. I’m trying to take each day at a time and breathe. Finding that mindfulness IVF app great for settling my heart 💓 when my head feels 🥴 fizzy.

Anyway, isn’t it fab to know we’ve others alongside us for the journey , all just waiting our turn 😘

Hope it’s your turn ASAP 🥰🥳🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

Rhinocat x

[hifer in reply to RhinoCat]

Yes it’s incredible to know that others are going through this with you. I actually don’t think I could do it otherwise. Sounds like you have got a handle on it all with your mindfulness which is great. How was the scan today? Xx

[RhinoCat in reply to hifer]

Scan seemed grand, my lining is 9mm and the three layers are visible . (Technically I haven’t taken my day 10

Meds so think this is on track )

Waiting to hear after lunch what the next plan is with regards progesterone and transfer etc . Thanks for asking 😀

Feeling positive so far and trying to be as chilled as I can and then actively doing something to calm myself when I feel crazy 😝 breathing seems like the simplest thing but the thing I never really noticed in close detail .

But sure anything can change at any second so I’m trying to keep my head on what I’ve been told and not running too far ahead of myself .

Have you tried the mindfulness ivf app?

Rhinocat x

[hifer in reply to RhinoCat]

That’s great news. 9mm is what dreams are made of!! Hopefully everything will continue to go in the right direction. I haven’t tried the app- what’s it called please? Xx

[RhinoCat]

It’s called ‘Mindfullness IVF’ . Has a wee cloud with headphones on it. It’s fab 💐

[hifer in reply to RhinoCat]

Ahhh it’s MindfullVF found it with the little cloud and headphones 😁. Have downloaded so will have a listen. Thanks so much for the recommendation xx

[RhinoCat in reply to hifer]

Sorry yes, mindful not ness 🥴 it has lots of free things then you can buy specific things. I bought the frozen cycle one at 2.99 ( price of a coffee) I actually listen to a few if I’m stressed. The anxiety and sleep one are good in it too . Someone on these walls told me about it so just passing it on 💐 hope it helps you too 👌🏻