After yesterday's uncertainty, a million more tests I am pregnant. I can't believe I can say that! I was so convinced I was out. ZERO symptoms the same as my first cycle. I didn't know how I was going to get to January to do another cycle. Slowly losing my mind.
Thank you all so much for lifting me at my lowest times. Not out the woods yet I know this but this is the first time in my entire life I've ever had any sniff of pregnancy. Tmi but I battled a 20 year eating disorder where my periods stopped for more than 15 years. I'm now a healthy bmi. I thought I was always going to live with an eating disorder for the rest of my life. I'm so grateful I've not done any long lasting damage. Spent half my life at barely 5.5 stones. I've never told anyone this. No psychiatrist could ever fill that void. Now on my way to being a mum 😢.
Never give up ladies. No one will ever understand the pain of ivf and that deep longing and yearning of motherhood. Your turn will come xxxx
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Thank you so much. I hope every. Single. Lady on here gets their dream. For me, for now it's the end of a living nightmare. Christmas has come early! I'm not ashamed to say, I've been desparate for this for a very, very long time when all my friends got married and had kids at 23, I was living with my reclusive, eating disordered lifestyle. I'm now 39 next month. I pray everyone on here gets the same outcome very, very soon. Xxx
Oh Jessy, I’m so sorry to hear about your eating disorder- they are truly awful things to live with. You must be so proud to be in a much better place now. And pregnant! It’s amazing news and I’m so happy for you. Huge congratulations hun. Wishing you all the best for the future 💖🥰 xx
This gives me hope that my stressed body won’t always let me down.... I’m like you an over thinker and I think the worst. I’m so glad you got good news.... now try and relax lovely you deserve it. Congratulations 🥳 xxxx ❤️
Thank you so much. It just goes to show that even with zero symptoms, we just don't know. I was convinced that I knew my body! I literally can't believe it!! X
Awww that is an amazing story, you brought tears to my eyes but I am so delighted for you! You absolutely deserve the best, mwah 💋 hope everything goes smoothly from now on xx
Thank you so much. Im absolutely overwhelmed by all the kind wishes when there's so many others on here trying to fulfill their dreams too. I pray each and everyone gets to experience this xxx
(And btw, its OK and totally normal to have both ups and really heavy downs in the weeks to come even with a bfp and growing life inside. We're just so stuffed with hormones - and our earlier experiences of failure - that it can be really tough sometimes. And sometimes even worse when everyone around you (as they get to know about it) are so enthusiastic about it, and you can't produce much of an enthusiasm yet... I don't tell to pull you down, but to just normalize it if that's what and how you feel in the weeks to come. I'm 13 weeks and still quite vulnerable emotionally and psychologically... But people keep telling me better days are to come, so I take one day at a time waiting for them to arrive! Hoping though that you'll be able to rejoice about this more than I've been able to up to now!)
(And btw 2: Earlier psychological issues can return during pregnancy and the time after the birth, so I suggest that you at least let your caretaker know that there has been some kind of issue so that she or is can be a little aware of struggles popping up along the way 😘)
Major congratulations on your pregnancy! Science is a god send. I hope you feel better in the weeks to come 🤗 xxx
That's very true. I'm struggling already with the weight gain mentally having had a chronic eating disorder for so many years. Two cycles of ivf haven't helped that. I've gained over two stones in two years. I'm not even carrying baby weight yet either. God help!
I've contacted my old cmht to see if I can talk to them about it. I know weight gain comes with the territory and I'm sooooooo flipping grateful ivf has worked but you're kinda battling old demons in a way. I know I need to eat well now more than ever.
Congratulations - really happy for you. Make sure you take care of yourself and baby. In my area there are midwives who specialise in working with mums who have/have had mental health difficulties of any kind. Not sure if that’s the same where you live but do speak to your midwife about your history as they should be able to guide you towards any additional support you might need during pregnancy or after birth.
Congratulations lovely lady. This is such an inspirational post. This is just what I needed to hear. You've obviously been through a lot. I just pray you have successful healthy happy pregnancy. Xxxx
Thank you all so much. Having hcg measured again tomorrow. Was 1065 yesterday so should hopefully have doubled. I'm really anxious over it but praying all will be OK x
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