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After yesterday's uncertainty, a million more tests I am pregnant. I can't believe I can say that! I was so convinced I was out. ZERO symptoms the same as my first cycle. I didn't know how I was going to get to January to do another cycle. Slowly losing my mind.

Thank you all so much for lifting me at my lowest times. Not out the woods yet I know this but this is the first time in my entire life I've ever had any sniff of pregnancy. Tmi but I battled a 20 year eating disorder where my periods stopped for more than 15 years. I'm now a healthy bmi. I thought I was always going to live with an eating disorder for the rest of my life. I'm so grateful I've not done any long lasting damage. Spent half my life at barely 5.5 stones. I've never told anyone this. No psychiatrist could ever fill that void. Now on my way to being a mum 😢.

Never give up ladies. No one will ever understand the pain of ivf and that deep longing and yearning of motherhood. Your turn will come xxxx

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Wehavethis

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Italy300618

So lovely to read a positive outcome for you, you so deserve this 🥰☺ xx

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Jessy1280 in reply to Italy300618

Thank you so much. I hope every. Single. Lady on here gets their dream. For me, for now it's the end of a living nightmare. Christmas has come early! I'm not ashamed to say, I've been desparate for this for a very, very long time when all my friends got married and had kids at 23, I was living with my reclusive, eating disordered lifestyle. I'm now 39 next month. I pray everyone on here gets the same outcome very, very soon. Xxx

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Millbanks

Oh Jessy, I’m so sorry to hear about your eating disorder- they are truly awful things to live with. You must be so proud to be in a much better place now. And pregnant! It’s amazing news and I’m so happy for you. Huge congratulations hun. Wishing you all the best for the future 💖🥰 xx

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emmab178

Congratulations x

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Sarah83ap

Congratulations! It’s so lovely to hear of success! X

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CLDxxx

Wow that’s a lot of positives right there! So happy for you! And good on you for getting through those difficult years. Onwards and upwards now.

Looking forward to hearing your updates! Massive congratulations xxx

Yay! Congratulations again! I’m so glad it’s worked for you! I have my nurse session today my journey starts today! 💕💕x

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Jessy1280

Thank you ladies. I feel so very grateful, blessed and touched by your kind wishes x

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Faith103

This gives me hope that my stressed body won’t always let me down.... I’m like you an over thinker and I think the worst. I’m so glad you got good news.... now try and relax lovely you deserve it. Congratulations 🥳 xxxx ❤️

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Jessy1280 in reply to Faith103

Thank you so much. It just goes to show that even with zero symptoms, we just don't know. I was convinced that I knew my body! I literally can't believe it!! X

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Faith103 in reply to Jessy1280

Enjoy every min...you deserve it....are bodies work in strange ways 😉 xxxx it’s your time

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Shelleybean

Yeyyy!! So pleased for you! Huge congratulations xx

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Mystic9

Congratulations! X

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Livinginhope2019

So so happy for you, huge congratulations again xxx

What a Warrior you are! So happy for you. Xx

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Tryagain45

Fantastic news!! Delighted for you and all the lines!!!! xx

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Hopeful_wishes

Yay! Congratulations, lovely news xx

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amandac84

I’ve got goosebumps reading that. Go you. It’s amazing! Congrats ss

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Sambab

Congratulations Jessy I'm pleased for you. I hope your pregnancy progresses well. Enjoy every moment xxx

Hi Jessy1280,

I am beyond happy for you l.🥰

Louise

Xxxx😘

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Iamtrying150

Awww that is an amazing story, you brought tears to my eyes but I am so delighted for you! You absolutely deserve the best, mwah 💋 hope everything goes smoothly from now on xx

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Jessy1280 in reply to Iamtrying150

Thank you so much. Im absolutely overwhelmed by all the kind wishes when there's so many others on here trying to fulfill their dreams too. I pray each and everyone gets to experience this xxx

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Core

So happy for you xx

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Kitcat12

Aw fab! Huge congratulations x

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sun-and-rain

I believed in you all the time ❤❤❤ Congrats!

(And btw, its OK and totally normal to have both ups and really heavy downs in the weeks to come even with a bfp and growing life inside. We're just so stuffed with hormones - and our earlier experiences of failure - that it can be really tough sometimes. And sometimes even worse when everyone around you (as they get to know about it) are so enthusiastic about it, and you can't produce much of an enthusiasm yet... I don't tell to pull you down, but to just normalize it if that's what and how you feel in the weeks to come. I'm 13 weeks and still quite vulnerable emotionally and psychologically... But people keep telling me better days are to come, so I take one day at a time waiting for them to arrive! Hoping though that you'll be able to rejoice about this more than I've been able to up to now!)

(And btw 2: Earlier psychological issues can return during pregnancy and the time after the birth, so I suggest that you at least let your caretaker know that there has been some kind of issue so that she or is can be a little aware of struggles popping up along the way 😘)

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Jessy1280 in reply to sun-and-rain

Major congratulations on your pregnancy! Science is a god send. I hope you feel better in the weeks to come 🤗 xxx

That's very true. I'm struggling already with the weight gain mentally having had a chronic eating disorder for so many years. Two cycles of ivf haven't helped that. I've gained over two stones in two years. I'm not even carrying baby weight yet either. God help!

I've contacted my old cmht to see if I can talk to them about it. I know weight gain comes with the territory and I'm sooooooo flipping grateful ivf has worked but you're kinda battling old demons in a way. I know I need to eat well now more than ever.

I feel so truly blessed to be in this position.

Thank you xx

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3005

Congratulations! 🥰

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Skippy1982

Yay congratulations this is fantastic news! So happy for you! 🎉🙌🏻xxx

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Kat_15

Hi Jessy, I’m so happy for you. Many congrats. Rest up and enjoy it all. xxx

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Littlemex

Congrats , lovely news ❤ xx

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kt_11

You sure you’ve done enough tests there?! 😂

Congratulations - really happy for you. Make sure you take care of yourself and baby. In my area there are midwives who specialise in working with mums who have/have had mental health difficulties of any kind. Not sure if that’s the same where you live but do speak to your midwife about your history as they should be able to guide you towards any additional support you might need during pregnancy or after birth.

Wishing you all the very best. You deserve it xx

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Rainbowhope

Congratulations lovely lady. This is such an inspirational post. This is just what I needed to hear. You've obviously been through a lot. I just pray you have successful healthy happy pregnancy. Xxxx

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Katbaby19

Amazing news congratulations xo

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Jessy1280

Thank you so much to you all. I can't stop testing! Going to take a while to sink in I think x

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everhopeful83

This is wonderful news 😍 so so happy for you ❤️❤️❤️xxx

So happy for you ❤️❤️

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Dreamingofbaby

That’s amazing to hear. Congratulations to u. Well deserved. Xxx

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Canadawaterchick

This is so so lovely!! Well done you for never giving up xxx

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PrayingforJKM

Congratulations and praying for a happy, healthy pregnancy/ baby 🙏

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Jessy1280

Thank you all so much. Having hcg measured again tomorrow. Was 1065 yesterday so should hopefully have doubled. I'm really anxious over it but praying all will be OK x

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Picalilli99

Congratulations on getting your bfp! xxxx

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