Lessons to learn

[Dody2019]

I have been a successful person during my entire life. I am always the first one on my class, I always get high grades on whatever subject I study, my mind used to it, there is nothing called impossible in my life dictionary. When I finish my BA, I got a very prestigious scholarship to study my MA at one of the top universities in the U.S. Eventually the world opens its door to me, I travel everywhere, attend conferences, and enjoy self confidence. I like how everyone looks up to me. When I came to the UK for my PHD I was happy to be accepted at top university again, my life looks perfect. Yet, we cannot get everything, I thought once I get married, having baby won’t be a big deal to me. I was wrong, I tried three years without any success but I was still hoping that I will have it like any other thing in my life but it won’t happen. I decided to try IVF two months ago, I was sure the outcome will be good. Cause my dictionary does not have a word called fail, it does not exist. Sadly I tested today and I got BFN, it took me sometime to think that I have a failed ivf and it’s real. My mind cannot believe it. But one lesson I got from this journey is that we can not control everything in our life. Sometimes there is no rational behind failure and trying to use reason might lead to madness. By the end of the day, I am really thankful for God who provides me with patient, I am the one who is trying to calm my husband, convincing him that it happens because we are not ready yet, we need to be good human being first and wait for the destiny to choose the right time for us.

[KriSho]

Sorry to hear about your BFN. I can completely relate to your post. I had my BFN in May and it took me over 2 weeks to get over it. I'm sure it will work out when the time comes . good luck XXX🤞🤞🤞❤️❤️

[Dody2019 in reply to KriSho]

Thanks

[Hidden]

I’m sorry you didn’t get your bfp must be so hard.

I feel abit like that I usually get what I set out for and do what I say I will do. But not having control of pregnancy is hard to come to terms with. I’ve been hard at ttc naturally for 2 years and 3 mc I feel defeated. Maybe time for us to call it a day.

[Dody2019 in reply to Hidden]

Ameen. Thanks dear

[SaraMusk]

I Understand how you Feel Huni, before getting Married I would Often say to Myself Im going to have Babies within the First Year of Marriage, but we don’t always get what we want and in a Blink of a Eye Nearly 9 Years have Passed of Marriage I didn’t Expect this in My Life and in 2016 when that Moment came when I could Finally tell the World I can be a Mother too, I began to Feel a Happy Life has just Started now but the Outcome wasn’t Expected when I gave Birth to My Daughter Stillbirth and Had her in My Arms with Tears that felt like Blood Tears in my Eyes 😢 Life just Stopped on Me that very Day but I tried to Control Myself as Days Passed and Decided for 3rd Round and here I am to the End of my 2WW and My Questions will be Answered Tomorrow hoping Life has some Happiness for Me, I really can Feel how you are Feeling and I can only Pray for a Good Future for you Hun ❤️ I Hope it won’t be Long when you will Hold onto your Bundle with a Big Smile 😘

[Dody2019 in reply to SaraMusk]

Good luck with tomorrow

[SaraMusk in reply to Dody2019]

Thank You