Another Pregnancy announcement..

[Emska77]

Hello everyone, the title says it all really.

I currently feel surrounded by pregnant women. The lady I sit by at work is going on MAT leave this Friday, the lady across from me has young twins plus a 5 year old, and another colleague has announced she is expecting twins and she is just turned 30. Plus a close friend of mine has just given birth to her second and so the list goes on..

I am truly so so happy for them all. I hide it well, but I have really been struggling to process it all recently and keep smiling. Most people don't know my full story, so this means there is no filter or off switch, when it comes to the CONSTANT baby talk. I have heard one of the ladies mention in a passing convo that 'you might be leaving it too late after 35' - not directed at me but about someone who's relationship was ending - she new I could hear, and knows I've been TTC and that I am 42! I'm sure she didn't mean it like that, (she is actually v sensitive and usually asks how 'things' are going) but still, she is nearly 36 so, a bit of a strange comment I thought.

I just wanted a bit of a winge to be honest. I do feel like my chances are slipping away - so after the twins announcement I did have a little cry last night when I got home.

I just hope I can come to terms with it if it doesn't happen. And that's still an IF at that stage as far as I'm concerned.

Love and baby dust to all you lovely ladies xxxx

[HM_3]

I'm sorry hun. You need to get it off your chest and I feel the same. We all do on here! babies everywhere at the moment.....unfair that we go through this tough journey. Keep smiling and stay positive. Sending you a big hug xx

[Ash2016]

Sorry you’re feeling like that lovely. I’m the same at the moment. Got three people at work who sit near me all pregnant and I’m sure one of my work friends is also pregnant. I feel sure of it which is upsetting me (even though great for her if my paranoia is true) but can’t help feeling upset and comparing myself. It feels so unfair to be with husband for 13 yrs and in love and yet four years of trying later and nothing. Feels like everyone else has it easy x

[Shinyhalo1]

Hey you, I am in the same boat really. My first IVF transfer failed May 24th - I’m 38! All of my friends have young children, so I’m everyone’s ‘Auntie’. Luckily, I work with men at work so no pregnancy chat (big burly blokes don’t tend to gush at that 😂). But my close friends have actually stopped inviting me out with their fams. They prob think they are doing me a favour but truth be told it makes me rage. My best friend then naively said well you don’t want to leave it til your 40, again; I wanted to rip heads off. Pregnancies are all over my Facebook page too 🙄. When I found out it failed I was so angry. Mainly because 2 of my friends fell 1st time on IVF and one of them has some real problems and didn’t really want motherhood (she admitted afterwards) just did it to please her husband. Perhaps I was being too cocky I don’t know but I was like why not me!?!

I have my review on Monday 11th and I am actually looking forward to chatting with the consultant to find out when I can get my 2nd embryo put in, but part of me is dreading another negative. Who knew this process would be so hard?!?

Keep your chin up though, people will always be people but you should always be you! Much love x