Finding it so hard not be excited

[Emmaxxx]

I am waiting for my period to arrive to start with round number 3. I just can’t get excited. I just keep thinking about how horrible it is when you get your first BFN or when the bleeding before OTD to get BFN on round 2. I know that this is another round and anything can happen but I just can’t shift the tears, the feeling down, feeling useless, worried what illness I may get this time, as both times I have been really poorly, knowing how moody the drugs me and I take it out on everyone or the keep thinking that it’s not going to work again. I seem to have found myself in a dark hole that I can’t get out of!! I just want a cuddle x

[Tigr]

Hi Emma, it sounds like it would maybe be good to talk to a councellor. This journey is incredibly though, the drugs do affect the mood and nothing is certain and there is no planning possible, no control. All this drains energy. Look after yourself, find ways to recharge and talk to someone. Hope you feel better soon and your next cycle works well!

[Kimbers12d]

Oh darling. I think most of us have been there. I was never positive to be honest. My bf was always really positive and then was so disappointed when it didn't work. I just assumed it wasn't going to work. I guess it was my way of protecting myself.

I felt useless too. Luckily I didn't have any bad reactions to the drugs or anything but emotionally I found it all horrific and thought it would never work for us. I never understood why people tested early. I never wanted to test at all... Didn't want to see that negative test.

Try to think of this one as a holiday maybe? And keep talking to your partner. I know they aren't always on the same wavelength as us, but it does help to tell them how you are feeling. He can reassure you at least that you are in no way useless! And you can always message me. Xx